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all my life i been poisoned since my mom first kissed my forehead swore shed never do it to me but the damage it was dormant born addicted infant torment family tree dead at the root but still i grew but then the youth got tainted too i saw the needle and i needed a breakthrough what a thrill from fourteen until forever still lost in it cost me my college cost me my love lost in the process and all for what its a motherfucker cause you think it makes you god but then it wears off and its not enough and now im shaking crying sweating bile in my soul but its a different kind of sick when im alone all my life i been poisoned and the sickness is spreading i dont know how it ends when the angels fall from grace thats when the monsters get their wings you can try to save my soul but i will drag you down beneath i will drag you down beneath i cant tell if i love you or if youre just a substitute i still call you my baby you call me daddy you know how it gets me screaming for the world to hear you thats when i feel closest to you you love the way i lie and i love the way you bleed but every time i touch you i hate myself and every time i love you i hate myself and every time i need you i hate myself cause every time you leave me i hate myself now im shaking crying sweating bile in my soul but its a different kind of sick when im alone all my life i been poisoned and the sickness is spreading i dont know how it ends when i lied when i killed when i fucked in the gutter when i tried to quit you i gave in and relapsed my hands were shaking crying sweating bile in my soul but its a different kind of sick when im alone i dont know how it ends when the angels fall from grace thats when the monsters get their wings you can try to save my soul but i will drag you down beneath pray for me born sick rotten from the start and she was young when she gave me away and he was gone from the very first day in their defense they did their best and they taught me to live with an emptiness in the absence of anyone to stay pray for me pray for me pray for me pray for me im stuck in withdrawal im shaking and crawling and crying and screaming on the floor pray for me pray for me pray for me pray for me im stuck in withdrawal im shaking and crawling and crying and screaming on the floor she was a little bit older than me the same height as her family tree gave me my first hit at fourteen and that shit made me weak at the knees so many women that i gotta please all with the same weight in their genes their toxic arms are all i need to take away my pain and put me back on my feet until it turns to a cold sweat bile on my soul fucking up my whole set see theres two types of women in this world theres the type thatll make you smile and the type thatll make you forget what do you do when your whole worlds empty dont let her look you in the eyes when she tempts me she knows exactly what i like when she wrecks me and shell put her nails in my flesh when she pray for me pray for me pray for me pray for me im stuck in withdrawal im shaking and crawling and crying and screaming on the floor pray for me pray for me pray for me pray for me im stuck in withdrawal im shaking and crawling and crying and screaming on the floor do you wanna know how deep it goes do you wanna see how dark it gets the betrayal the violence the sex i just wanted to make her come now i just wanna forget all of the things that i did and the ways that i hid that i no longer exist it just hurts so bad i wanna be fixed and the needles the only thing that could