[HOOK 1—LAYERED] Can you see my darkness? (No one sees, no one sees) Can you hear the silence? It keeps swallowing me Do you think I’m heartless? I think I’m only empty (Only empty, empty) I can see the darkness It’s the only thing beside me (Beside me, beside me) [VERSE 1] Feeling like I’m lost, losing my mind, losing the fight (Losing the fight, the fight) I mine my mind for answers while the past sets off the wires Silent as a mime, but every thought inside me riots I keep calm, keep it secret, keep the damage out of sight I can’t sleep; the dark keeps asking when I think I’m gonna die (Up all night, all night) The ceiling never answers, but I question it each night The refrigerator’s humming like the room is still alive While I’m lying in the darkness trying to remember why I turn my phone facedown, but nobody was gonna call (No one calls, no one calls) I hear the neighbours living through the paper-thin walls Sometimes loneliness gets crowded when the memories all speak I rehearse whole conversations with the people who don’t need me Every night the clock repeats the hours I already knew (Empty room, empty room) Every morning drags me somewhere I don’t want to move I wear the right expression so nobody asks again Then return to where the silence knows exactly where I’ve been (Alone again, alone again) [HOOK 2—LAYERED] Can you see my darkness? (No one sees, no one sees) Can you hear the silence? It keeps swallowing me Do you think I’m heartless? I think I’m only empty (Only empty, empty) I can see the darkness It’s the only thing beside me (Beside me, beside me) [VERSE 2] The screen’s the only light inside the room again Same phone, same apps, same ghosts, fewer living friends (Same ghosts, same ghosts) Some are six feet down; their faces fade around the edges I scroll backward through our lives like I can resurrect the seconds I have nothing, got nobody; loneliness remains If you looked beneath my skin, you’d see my soul is stained (Soul stained, soul stained) Different age, same place, grey hair, story on the same page I keep wishing I could turn off all the sirens in my brain I cover every hole with one more layer of the paint (Underneath the paint, the paint) Another year goes by; it dries, then slowly flakes away Death keeps standing at the door; I tell him that I’m not afraid But I’m scared if I invite him in, I’ll disappear without a trace (Don’t fade away, fade away) I’m scrolling through the memories, adrift on a lonely sea Searching every photograph for who I used to be If the current pulls me under, take me back before I leave Back when I was happy, back when I could still believe (Back to me, back to me) [HOOK 3—LAYERED] Can you see my darkness? (No one sees, no one sees) Can you hear the silence? It keeps swallowing me Do you think I’m heartless? I think I’m only empty (Only empty, empty) I can see the darkness It’s the only thing beside me (Beside me, beside me) [VERSE 3] Back to myself, back when I was happy and free (Back to myself, myself) Back when I had hope, big plans and all my energy Back when closing both my eyes meant I could fall asleep Before every conversation felt like it was forced by me They tell me it gets better, then they leave before it does (Where’d you go? Where’d you go?) Every silence feels deserved, so I absorb it and shut up I locked my secrets into storage; now the rent is overdue The longer I avoid that room, the more it costs to walk into I don’t cry much, but I feel the pressure in my chest (No release, no release) Like someone pulled the power from the parts of me that rest I study old photographs and ask, “Where did that kid go?” His world went grey, then grey went black; he vanished years ago I’m scared of getting better; pain remembers who I am Without the empty rooms, the breakdowns, overthinking plans I’m scared of being happy—what if happiness won’t last? What if all the healing does is make me face the past? (Who am I? Who am I?) Sometimes I think I’m broken; sometimes I think I’m only numb But I’m still here, still breathing, though I barely have the lungs Maybe hope is not a feeling; maybe hope is choosing breath Maybe that’s the part worth saving when I’ve nothing else left (Still here, still here) [SMALL BRIDGE—PIANO] Maybe I don’t need an answer Maybe I just need a start If nobody sees the damage I can still admit it’s dark (It is dark, it is dark) Maybe naming what I’m feeling Is where the saving starts (That’s the part worth saving) [FINAL HOOK—DISTORTED FADING ECHOES] Can you see my darkness? (No one sees, no one sees) I can hear the silence But it doesn’t speak for me I thought I was heartless I was only feeling empty (Only empty, empty) The dark is still beside me But it doesn’t get to be me (Not me… not me…)
