The Outside

Same alarm, same morning light
Same conversation every night
I say I'm good, I play along
Even when I know it's wrong I know the words, I know the part
I just can't find them in my heart
Everybody thinks they know me well
I don't know who they're talking about When did I stop Feeling like me? When did I become Someone I can’t see? I'm on the outside
Looking in
Watching my life
Start again Tell me, is this living?
Tell me, is this it?
I'm on the outside
And I can't get in 
I used to wait for Friday nights
Used to stay awake till daylight
Used to have a list of dreams
Now I don't know what they mean Friends ask me what I've been up to
I say “nothing much, how about you?”
I wanna tell them something's changed
But I don't know how to explain When did I stop Feeling like me? When did I become Someone I can’t see? I'm on the outside
Looking in
Watching my life
Start again Tell me, is this living?
Tell me, is this it?
I'm on the outside
And I can't get in 
Maybe nothing's missing.
Maybe I've just gone too far
Tryin’ to close the distance When I’ve already reached the stars 
Between a life that happens
And a life you live I don't want an answer.
I want a reason
To give.. I'm on the outside
Looking in
Still don't know
Where I begin Maybe I'm lost
Maybe I'm not
Maybe I'm closer
Than I thought If I open up
Will I disappear?
If I let it hurt
Will I finally feel? I don't know where
I don't know when
But maybe someday
I can feel again..