I was still explaining when the room went quiet Still mid-sentence like it wasn’t decided I thought if I found the right commission of words we could reset what had already burned I didn’t know it was the last time If I had known I would’ve stayed inside it I thought there was time I thought we were paused I didn’t see we were already lost You don’t notice the floor giving way Until you’re reaching and there’s nothing to save I replay the moment like it has an alternate end Where I say something better and you don’t pretend Where the silence doesn’t mean what it meant Where the door isn’t closing while I’m still convinced I keep thinking it’ll correct itself Like shock is a glitch in the way I felt But it doesn’t rewind It doesn’t bend It doesn’t ask if I understand I thought there was time I thought we were paused I didn’t see we were already lost You don’t hear thunder until it’s too late You just stand there with your hands too late I didn’t know it was happening I didn’t know it was done I was still reaching Still talking Still trying to outrun Something that had already moved Something that didn’t need my proof I was still there You were already through Tell me where I was supposed to stand Tell me when it left my hands I would have changed it If I could see it I would have stopped it If I could be it But shock is a wall You hit alone And helplessness is coming home I thought there was time I thought we were fine I was still holding what wasn’t mine The world kept moving like nothing was wrong I was the only one still mid-song I still hear the last thing you said It sounds the same inside my head Everything normal Everything still Except the part I couldn’t will
