[INTRO - Distant Clean Guitar, Soft Room Noise, Barely Audible Vocal Breath] there’s no second chances there’s no going home again [VERSE 1 - Minimal Guitar, Intimate Vocal, Sparse Kick Drum, Long Pauses Between Lines] fourteen years sober what a joke to tell I include him in conversations just to hear him laugh no one knew his patience no one stayed to listen to a father’s struggle and the daughter left behind [PRE-CHORUS - Rising Guitar Feedback, Bass Entering Slowly, Voice Beginning to Crack] something’s lost in missing something’s lost in death a graveside service I hated his ashes in my hands fuck whoever sold him the pills fuck the family who won’t acknowledge me [CHORUS - Huge Emotional Melody, Wide Guitars, Open Drums, Desperate Vocal Belt, Simple Memorable Hook] fourteen years sober what a joke to tell “was” and “were” sound harmless until I let them in then every word feels like hell [VERSE 2 - Heavier Distortion, Bitter Vocal Delivery, Subtle Harmony Beneath Lead] snorting pills to numb the pain vodka just to chase them down how did no one notice? how could he fucking do this? his only kid the one he left behind I’ve got something of his smile but I wear my mother’s eyes he wouldn’t know me anymore I became the ghost of his mistakes [BRIDGE - Stripped Piano and Voice, Nearly Whispered Confession, Sudden Full-Band Impact] fourteen years sober why’d you take those pills? [BREAKDOWN - Slow Emotional Chords, Screamed Repeated Line, Cymbal Wash, No Aggressive Deathcore Chugging] left me wondering what the fuck I did wrong why don’t I get a dad? why do I get this fucking song? there’s no time left to imagine how long he might have stayed [FINAL CHORUS - Full Vocal Layers, Higher Melody, Broken Scream Beneath Clean Lead, Instruments Swelling Into Noise] fourteen years sober but he’ll never know the woman with his smile the child he left behind I survived his addiction but it took him every time [OUTRO - Clean Guitar Repeating Main Motif, Voice Fading Mid-Sentence, Amp Hum Left Unresolved] [MALE VOICEMAIL - Flat Automated Phone Voice, Compressed Audio, Generic Voicemail Tone] the voicemail box is full [LONG SILENCE] it’s been fourteen years, Katherine
