[Verse 1] I was sixteen when it all began Had a restless heart I couldn't understand Some days I'd rise, feeling ten feet tall Other days I could barely move at all I'd chase the highs, I'd curse the lows Hide the parts I didn't want to show Spent twenty years at war inside Trying to change the way I'm wired [Pre-Chorus] I thought that peace meant being free From every part that troubled me But all that fighting wore me thin Till I learned to listen in [Chorus] At thirty-six, I found my rhythm Stopped running from the things I feel My mind became my best friend When I quit trying to make it heal I let the highs come, let the lows pass I know the signs, I know the sound I don't let every thought decide What keeps my feet upon the ground And after all those years of fighting I finally found some peace inside [Verse 2] Hypomanic, I start moving fast Making plans like the feeling's gonna last A hundred thoughts, too little sleep Promises I know I shouldn't keep Then depressed and overly tired Even simple things feel like a climb But now I know what those changes mean I recognize the episodes before they deepen [Pre-Chorus 2] I don't pretend they won't return There's still a lot I'm gonna learn But I don't have to lose my way Just because my mind has changed [Chorus] At thirty-six, I found my rhythm Stopped running from the things I feel My mind became my best friend When I quit trying to make it heal I let the highs come, let the lows pass I know the signs, I know the sound I don't let every thought decide What keeps my feet upon the ground And after all those years of fighting I finally found some peace inside [Bridge] Same time to wake, same time to rest Regular meals, doing what serves me best A little work, a little room to breathe Keeping the promises I make to me My mind says go, but I know when to stay Sometimes it wants to throw the plans away And sometimes it wants to sleep all day But I keep my rhythm anyway 'Cause what I want in any moment Ain't always what I need And the life I've built around me Is the life that sets me free [Final Chorus] At thirty-six, I found my rhythm Twenty years to understand My mind became my best friend When I stopped making my last stand I still get high, I still get low Some days are harder than they seem But I can listen without following Every thought that comes to me I don't need to beat my own mind Or change the way it's always been I just need to keep my rhythm And let myself live within [Outro] It took twenty years to understand I don't have to fight the mind I have It's still the same old mind inside But now we're on the same side And I can live with that. [End]
