Bando.Bando7 be da fuckin logo Can someone ,anybody jus tell me let me know? Is real love still living anymore? If sooo , then where ,Where the HELL it go? OK OK Its Bando and ive been going thru some thangz Da hardest thing I ever did Is facin’ who I really is All this shit I won’t admit Issues I can’t fix, watchin’ you lose faith That the good in me exists I’m helpless and it’s sick Selfish as a bitch Worse is what it gets Ready just to quit Harden heart by the darkness Of the shit I’m livin’ in A narcissist, fickle friend Hidin’ from the harshness, always belittlin’ Such a villain, should be punished, put the pistol in Wildin’ like I need Ritalin Blinded by they kindness But behind it was ill intent Treated like a simpleton Vengeful how my mental been Safe to say my hateful ways They was instrumental in Pretendin’ it’s okay, but it’s killin’ him Try to get away but My character defeats me I believe my bitch love me But I’m scared she gonna leave me Dealin’ with these insecurities Definitely not easy All the problems that I got I done spoke about ’em weekly Standards that I ain’t meetin’ Mistakes that I’m repeatin’ Pride inside won’t let me say That I’m feelin’ broke and beaten All these goals I ain’t reachin’ Got me keepin’ secrets Truth is I just hate to let you See me at my weakest Me, I be on defense I’m my harshest critic My heart, I’m tryna pivot My own grave, I help to dig it Is there forgiveness For the heartless and wicked? And if we talkin’ problems You should see how long my list is Ayy bando what if it's too late bro what if What if I can’t fix this What if I’m too broken What if they provoke it, be the reason What if I don’t ever learn How to handle these emotions? Payin’ for mistakes, it’s too late Gotta reap it ’cause I sowed it Weight of all this pain Get too heavy, I can’t hold it Life get to life’n, I quit fightin’ and I folded Would anybody notice? Would anybody care? Why when I need it Ain’t never no one there? I know somethin’ comin’, I can feel it in the air Refuse to live in fear, I’ll be ready, I ain’t scared Life is never fair, Ain’t nobody said it was Lashin’ out with anger When I really need a hug Numbin’ all my feelings with the drugs Forgiveness on my wishlist But I’d rather hold a grudge Notice that I’m different, That’s just what depression does This is who you is now, And you miss who you was All the things you don’t discuss Got you feelin’ self-destruct You don’t talk about it much ’Cause you know they don’t give a fuck u can feel it in your gut Tellin’ you be careful who you trust ’Cause if you ever fall out They’ll be quick to bring it up Meanwhile, you just tryna find A way out of all this shit But lately life gotcha Snappin’ Takin’ everything you got Standin’ tall without a crutch ’Cause keepin’ on is a must No ifs, ands or buts So i ask myself ( bando) What if I can’t fix this What if I’m too broken What if they provoke me, be the reason ’ What if I don’t ever learn How to handle these emotions? Payin’ for mistakes, it’s too late Gotta reap it ’cause I sowed it Weight of all this pain Get too heavy, I can’t hold it Life get to life’n I quit fightin’ and I folded Would anybody notice? Would anybody care? Why when I need it Ain’t never no one there (BANDO) If I vanish in the silence, Would you even see the change? Would you notice all the violence That I’m hidin’ in my brain? Would you finally say you love me Or just whisper I’m to blame? If I never make it out this, Will you even say my name Every scar a paragraph In stories I don’t tell I been laughin’ through the pain Just to hide the fact im livin’ hell Tryna find sleep Feelin’ like a crime scene I can’t wipe clean All the shit I might be When my pride speak Say I’m fine, but inside I’m a tight scream Still I get up, still I go Still I’m runnin’ from my soul Still I’m searchin’ for control In a world I can’t control I been standin’ in the cold With a heart that’s made of gold But I wrapped it up in stone So nobody get too close What if I can’t fix this? What if I’m too broken? What if they provoke it, Is the reason I be implodin’? What if I don’t ever learn How to handle these emotions? Payin’ for mistakes, it’s too late Gotta reap it ’cause I sowed it Weight of all this pain Get too heavy, I can’t hold it Life get to life’n, I quit fightin’ and I folded Would anybody notice? Would anybody care? Why when I need it Ain’t never no one there Its Bando again Talkin’ to the mirror, Only one that ever stare Only one that ever listen When I’m gaspin’ for the air Maybe I’ma fix this, Even if I’m feelin’ broken Maybe I ain’t hopeless, Maybe hurt can be a token ’Til then I’m just floatin’, Tryna stay above the ocean Holdin’ all this weight alone Like it’s my last devotion If I crumble, if I fall, If I vanish in the glare Just remember I was fightin’ Even when nobody cared
