I Think I'm Numb

I spent so long trying to get you out of my head Couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, barely got out of bed And now I wake up fine Like none of it ever happened I don’t miss you the way I used to Your name doesn’t hit the same And I swear that’s what I wanted So why do I hate this change? I thought healing would feel warmer than this I think I’m numb And I don’t know when it happened Somewhere between missing you and moving on I think I’m numb If this is healing, why does it feel wrong? Why does feeling nothing Hurt more than holding on? I think I’m numb to you I think I’m numb to you I still check my phone out of habit Still reach for you when something happens But it dies before it gets too far Like my chest forgot how to start Everybody says it’s a good thing Like I finally made it through But if I’m being honest I don’t know what I’m supposed to do I miss caring more than I miss you I think I’m numb And I don’t know when it happened Somewhere between missing you and moving on I think I’m numb If this is healing, why does it feel wrong? Why does feeling nothing Hurt more than holding on? I think I'm numb to you Maybe I should cry Maybe I should scream Anything to wake up what’s still inside of me I want the old pain back At least that was real Give me back the heartbreak Give me back the feels I think I’m numb And I don’t know when it happened Somewhere between missing you and moving on I think I’m numb If this is healing, why does it feel wrong? Why does feeling nothing Hurt more than holding on? I think I'm numb I think I'm numb I think I'm numb I think I'm numb to you