I wake up before the sun again Same routine, same ache within Little shoes by the front door line Two small hands that still hold mine Drive to school with tears I hide Smile for them, then break inside Every day just feels the same Breathing in but not the same And I keep your number on my phone Like one day you might come home I still talk to you like you’re there Like you’re listening somewhere In the silence, in the dark In the pieces of my heart I’m still learning how to be Everything they need from me Holding on when I feel numb Still here… still mom She still thinks you’re coming back Says your name like that’s a fact Leaves you notes beside your frame Runs to check them every day The other one won’t let it show But I see more than she lets go Anger hiding all the pain Questions I can’t explain And I don’t know what I should say Or how to take their hurt away I still talk to you like you’re there Like you’re listening somewhere In the silence, in the dark In the pieces of my heart I’m still learning how to be Everything they need from me Holding on when I feel numb Still here… still mom There’s guilt that follows me to sleep Words I wish I didn’t keep Moments playing on repeat Did I miss what you couldn’t speak… And I’m angry, then I break Then I beg for one mistake To rewind and let me try Just one more time to say goodbye But there’s no going back… Only forward like this… So I talk to you like you’re there Like you’re closer than the air In the memories we made In the love that didn’t fade I’ll be everything I can Even if I barely stand One more day, one more step, one more breath I become Still here… Still mom 🤍
