Smile

I wish I could fake a smile That I wasn't stressed out of my mind That I knew what normal was Instead of what the hell i'm doing 'Cause this shit ain't workin' I know what happiness looks like.. So why am I this broken inside (Broken inside!) I keep my phone face down on the table Act like I’m fine when I’m not even stable I say “I’m good” way too fast Like by saying it enough, maybe it’ll last But! I recall every dumb thing I said Replaying on loop in my head I'll lay awake with this curse in my bed Never forgetting this fucked up life I led I don’t need you all to see this mess Chaining you down into my deathbed No! Me stayin' alone is for everyone's best [Pre-chorus] So, I shut the door, let the room get dark Hands on my head, waiting for a black out To fall apart, so I forget And restart somewhere I could be my best [Chorus] I'll cut the chords, so I don't drag you with me I bit my tongue, so you don't suffer my speech If I go under, then I'll do it on my own Smile, be happy Nobody deserves that misery Nobody deserves to suffer me I'll be the one to break alone Crash and burn for these sins I own I'll cut the chords, so I don't drag you with me Don't follow me Don't follow me I leave all texts on read failing to reply Staring empty at the screen trying to grasp the why Every word coming up is sour and apathy Better keep 'em to myself to not spew the agony When one escape: it's a sulfuric, tainted mess And I glance at the venom only to breathe in regrets I'd like to be able to leave this tunnel I'm inside No light on either end just darkness and failed tries No! I wish I could turn back the time Reset everything now that I know what's right I heard the future still holds joy to find... But I long lost the faith that I'll be alright Least before I break everything outside, so [Pre-chorus] I shut the door, let the room get dark Hands on my head, waiting for a black out If I fall apart, I do it in here Where nobody has to hear [Chorus] I'll cut the chords, so I don't drag you with me I bit my tongue, so you don't suffer my speech If I go under, then I'll do it on my own Smile, be happy Nobody deserves that misery Nobody deserves to suffer me I'll be the one to break alone Crash and burn for these sins I own I'll cut the chords, so I don't drag you with me If you see me hanging by a thread Know that I, need saving but seek silence instead I want a, hand to drag me out of this But don't deserve a piece of it I destroy everything I'm touching Exist in a veiled state of surviving Too much of a coward to even end it Moving forward 'cause it feels like fleein' The river flows better without me I'm somewhere I wish on nobody Please! Don't join me in the fallout Don't hold my hand while the light gives to dark Don't drown in the shadows where I stand I know, they'll swallow all in the end Save yourselves I'm a nobody Maker of the black hole set upon me To the emptiness I belong The collateral should be my own Save yourselves I'm a nobody Don't you dare feel sorry for me... Hoping was never for the likes of me..... I'm exactly where I'm meant to be... Where the break will only carry me... [Pre-chorus] So, I shut the door, let the room get dark Hands on my head, waiting for a black out To fall apart, so I forget Restart somewhere I could be my best [Chorus] I cut the chords, so I don't drag you with me I bit my tongue, so you don't suffer my speech If I go under, then I'll do it on my own Smile, be happy Nobody deserves that misery Smile, be happy Nobody deserves to suffer me I'll be the one to break alone Crash and burn for these sins I own I'll cut the chords, so I don't drag you with me