Had to lose to get better

[Verse 1] Ohh I said goodbye to all my friends They were always hurting me I kept trying to fit in Even when my hands shook I smiled when I wanted to leave I stayed when I should have gone Now the room is too quiet And I hear myself thinking too much [Pre-Chorus] I’m learning how to stand still Without someone pulling me I’m learning how to breathe here Even when it hurts [Chorus] I had to lose to get better (I had to lose to get better) I don’t want to be this lonely But I want to be whole I had to lose to get better (I had to lose to get better) No one can do that part for me I have to walk it alone [Verse 2] there’s an empty space in my heart that never grew Old names still show up in my head Like they never really left I miss the noise sometimes I miss being known so easy But I do not miss the ache Of shrinking just to stay [Pre-Chorus] I’m learning how to stand still Without someone pulling me I’m learning how to breathe here Even when it hurts [Chorus] I had to lose to get better (I had to lose to get better) I don’t want to be this lonely But I want to be whole I had to lose to get better (I had to lose to get better) No one can do that part for me I have to walk it alone [Bridge] If you see me now I’m not broken in the same way I’m quieter I’m harder to shake I still miss them That does not mean I should go back Some exits save you Even when they hurt mhm [Chorus] I had to lose to get better (I had to lose to get better) I don’t want to be this lonely But I want to be whole I had to lose to get better (I had to lose to get better) No one can do that part for me I have to walk it alone ohh (I had to lose to get better)