After Dark

[Intro] Daylight chewed me up again Spit me out in wrinkled skin But your room glows blue at half past ten And I can breathe when I walk in [Verse 1] I spent all day being someone useful Nodding along while my head went brutal Smiling like my teeth weren’t cracked Saying “yeah, I’m good” with a knife in my back Everybody wants a clean little answer Work a little harder, move a little faster Sell them your hours, swallow your tongue Then thank them for stealing the air from your lungs But the sun goes down And your window shines And the world gets small And the night is mine [Pre-Chorus] You pass me the controller With your feet on my thigh And I forget for a minute That I wanted to die [Chorus] We get high after dark And I don’t have to fake it Laughing so hard I can’t even take it Movies we’ve seen Games we don’t finish Talking all night About nothing with meaning But that’s the whole point That’s the whole spark We are finally alive After dark [Verse 2] You got crumbs on your hoodie I got smoke in my hair Some old horror movie screaming But we don’t really care You say, “Would you survive In a zombie attack?” I say, “Girl, I barely survived Being perceived at work today, relax” And you laugh like a streetlight Breaking through rain And my stupid little heart Starts acting up again I wanna tell you the truth But the truth is too bright So I hide in the joke And stay close for the night [Pre-Chorus] The whole day was a costume The whole day was a lie But your voice cuts through the static Like a hole in the sky [Chorus] We get high after dark And I don’t have to fake it Laughing so hard I can’t even take it Movies we’ve seen Games we don’t finish Talking all night About nothing with meaning But that’s the whole point That’s the whole spark We are finally alive After dark [Bridge] No boss, no clock No fluorescent cage No customer voice No minimum wage No mirror, no mask No “how have you been?” No pretending I’m fine While I’m bleeding within Just your socks on the carpet My head on the floor Some dumb conversation About what ghosts are for And I think this is freedom Not loud, not grand Just being unguarded With your hand near my hand [Verse 3] Maybe joy isn’t pretty Maybe joy isn’t clean Maybe it’s pixels and blankets And spilling caffeine Maybe life doesn’t save you In some cinematic way Maybe it just gives you one room At the end of the day Where the world can’t reach Where the rot can’t start Where I don’t have to be A product with a heart Where you look over softly And ask, “You still there?” And I say, “Yeah, I’m here” And I mean it, I swear [Final Chorus] We get high after dark And I don’t have to fake it Laughing so hard I can’t even take it Movies we’ve seen Games we don’t finish Talking all night About nothing with meaning But that’s the whole point That’s the whole spark We are finally alive After dark We get high after dark And the day can’t touch us Two tired girls In a room full of dumb stuff I don’t need heaven I don’t need a new start Just you, me, and nothing After dark [Outro] The morning can wait Let it rot where it stands You fall asleep laughing With crumbs on your hands I stare at the ceiling Still scared, but not gone For once I’m not pretending For once I belong