Where It Came From

I thought some doors were certain I thought some lines were drawn I thought the people standing near me Knew what could not be gone There were rooms I never questioned Walls I never had to see I thought safety meant somebody Was watching over me Then something moved beneath it A truth I couldn't place And suddenly the shelter Had another shape behind it If the roof was never solid What was holding me before? If the truth can live in shadows What was safety anymore? I don't need to know the whole thing To know what it has changed Sometimes losing protection Is learning where it came from Where it came from Where it came from I searched for an explanation That could put the pieces back I gave every hidden motive More mercy than the facts But I was not the keeper Of the secrets I was shown And I shouldn't have to carry What was never mine to own Maybe I confused protection With never seeing harm Maybe growing up is learning Safety isn't someone's arm If the roof was never solid What was holding me before? If the truth can live in shadows What was safety anymore? I don't need to know the whole thing To know what it has changed Sometimes losing protection Is learning where it came from I wanted someone certain When everything turned strange I wanted one old answer To make the world the same But I can guard the doorway I can choose what enters now I can carry what was broken Without carrying it for you There are things I won't inherit There are things I'll leave behind I can grieve the shape of safety And still build a different kind If the roof was never solid I know what failed before But I don't need every answer To decide what I'm here for I can hold the love that mattered Without calling hurt okay Sometimes losing protection Shows me how to stay I thought someone stood behind me Now I know I stand here too