[Intro] [distorted electric guitar riff, heavy drums] [growled vocals] Yeah! [Verse 1] [palm-muted electric guitar, bass, and drums] I've been boating in a world so cold Where I try to play my role and they try to take my soul I won't fold, I just play my hand until the game gets old My heart's sold on a story that I never told Try to fight the thoughts inside of my head Telling me that I'm better off dead All the damages I be trying to hide I can't manage it, I want to live, but I want to die [Chorus] [full distorted guitars, driving drums] But I want to die! [shouted vocals] I've been boating in a world so cold Where I try to play my role and they try to take my soul I won't fold, I just play my hand until the game gets old My heart's sold on a story that I never told Try to fight the thoughts inside of my head Telling me that I'm better off dead All the damages I be trying to hide I can't manage it, I want to live, but I want to die [Verse 2] [clean electric guitar arpeggio, bass, and steady drums] Think you could stand in my shoes? Well I've been walking through mud Can't keep up with my bills, I ain't even got no bud All my family got killed off, life, guns, and the drugs Don't know how I should feel, but all I want is some love But you can't replace all the tears for forever knowing hugs Fell from my face through the years of abuse growing up Mom only had one arm, did me pops till fourteen A man's did me harm, don't blame her for the whole thing That's the old me from '03 and you know I be coping Never thought I'd be a dope fiend, kept it to myself 'cause I was weak [Bridge] [clean guitar arpeggio, melodic singing] And I felt the world would roast me 'Cause all my friends done ghost me Well except one, he's the most G Not like the ones that told me to trust them [distorted guitar enters] Then stole things! [Chorus] [full intensity, shouted vocals] I've been boating in a world so cold Where I try to play my role and they try to take my soul I won't fold, I just play my hand until the game gets old My heart's sold on a story that I never told Try to fight the thoughts inside of my head Telling me that I'm better off dead All the damages I be trying to hide I can't manage it, I want to live, but I want to die [Outro] [melodic singing, clean guitar arpeggio] I want to live, but I want to die But I want to die But I want to die [guitar fades out]
