Verse 1 I met you underneath the neon light Told myself, “Tonight, I'm gonna get it right” No stupid jokes, no running from the truth Then I spilled my drink all over both my shoes I had a little speech prepared in my head Something romantic, something you might not forget You looked at me, I looked at you And suddenly I forgot what grown-ups do Pre-Chorus I swear, I swear, I'm trying To keep my feet on the ground But every time my heart starts talking My mouth makes a stupid sound Chorus I'm a clown, but I swear I'm trying Every time I mean it, I end up laughing Fireworks going off inside my chest I don't know if it's love, but I like it best I wanna slow down, I wanna calm down I wanna be somebody you can count on But somebody put the party back on— I'm trying to take it seriously But the joke keeps getting the best of me Verse 2 I bought you roses, lost them at the bar Found one in my jacket underneath my car I told my friends, “This time, I'm gonna stay” Then somebody yelled, “Free drinks!” and I ran away Maybe I'm scared of the things I can't explain Maybe I make everything a game 'Cause if I never call it something real Then I never have to say how I feel Pre-Chorus 2 I swear, I swear, I'm trying I even practiced what to say But when you get that look in your eyes All my clever words escape Chorus I'm a clown, but I swear I'm trying Every time I mean it, I end up laughing Fireworks going off inside my chest I don't know if it's love, but I like it best I wanna slow down, I wanna calm down I wanna be somebody you can count on But somebody put the party back on— I'm trying to take it seriously But the joke keeps getting the best of me Bridge Maybe I'm not scared of love Maybe I'm scared I'll mean it Maybe underneath the makeup There's somebody who believes it And if I take this mask away Would you still wanna stay? I don't have a punchline For that one today Final Chorus I'm a clown, but I swear I'm trying! Look at me, I'm finally not hiding! Fireworks lighting up the sky Maybe I don't have to know the reason why I wanna slow down, I wanna calm down I wanna be somebody you can count on But if the whole damn world is going up— I'll laugh, I'll cry, I'll dance, I'll love! I'm a clown, but I swear I'm trying Maybe growing up doesn't mean I'm done smiling And if I fall, let the whole town know— I was serious for a second... Then I lost control.
