I Still Know How

I almost left the table empty Thought my hands had lost the shape Every answer felt borrowed Every choice arrived too late I kept waiting to feel ready Like readiness would know my name Then something small went right Nothing anyone would praise One clean turn without correcting One decision that stayed made I looked down at what I'd finished And believed my hands again I still know how Somewhere underneath the doubt I still know how I don't need the old precision I don't need to be untouched Maybe confidence is quieter Than the version I had trusted Maybe losing faith in myself Didn't mean that I was lost Let the proof be ordinary Let it only prove one thing I can move before I'm certain I can learn while moving I don't need to come back perfect I just need somewhere to stand One true thing I did myself One small answer in my hands I can build from something real I still know how There were days I called it failure When I simply couldn't see How much effort goes to surviving What once came easily I was measuring tomorrow With the strength I used to be I can miss who I was Without refusing who I am I can want my old strength back And still use these shaking hands I don't need to come back perfect I just need somewhere to stand One true thing I did myself One small answer in my hands I can build from something real I still know how Not the way I did before Maybe that's not what I need I still know how Enough to begin