Nothing Never 🖤🚫

I keep the door open Like somebody might come through I leave the hallway light on Like I’m waiting up for you I tell myself it’s nothing Just a thought I can’t dismiss Funny how a little nothing Can feel something big like this And I keep my hands busy I keep my eyes away But every road I take Keeps bringing me your way I think I’m giving in I think I already did I keep calling this nothing But nothing never felt like this I think I’m giving in I don’t know where it ends I was trying not to want you Now I’m trying to pretend I hear you in the silence I see you when I blink I build a thousand reasons Not to say what I think I laugh a little louder When somebody says your name Like if I make it funny It won't give me away But something keeps pulling Something I can't explain The harder I fight it The more it takes its shape I think I’m giving in I think I already did I keep calling this nothing But nothing never felt like this I think I’m giving in I don’t know where it ends I was trying not to want you Now I’m trying to pretend Maybe I was waiting Maybe I was scared Maybe all this time I just wanted you there And if I say it Then I can't take it back So I'll stand here quiet While my heart does all the talking I think I’m giving in I think I already did I keep calling this nothing But nothing never felt like this I think I’m giving in I don't know where it ends I was trying not to want you Now I don't want to pretend I think I'm giving in I think I'm giving in Maybe I was never Really trying to win