[Intro] [Distant piano] Not again… Please… Not again. [Verse 1] I know how to start over, I’ve done it too many times Learned how to pack a dream inside a box and call it life Learned how to smile when the plan falls apart Learned how to build from the ashes with a tired heart Every time I think I’m finally getting somewhere Something changes, something breaks, something disappears And everybody says, “You’ll be stronger when it’s through” I don’t wanna be stronger… I wanna finally be okay too I’m tired of rebuilding what I spent years creating Tired of calling every setback some kind of preparation Tired of hearing “everything happens for a reason” When sometimes it just happens and leaves you bleeding I’ve been the man who figures it out for so long Everybody thinks I’m made of something that can’t go wrong But nobody asks what it costs when I do Nobody sees the pieces I leave behind just to pull through [Pre-Chorus] I can survive… That’s never been the problem. The problem is… How many times can I survive Before surviving becomes my whole life? [Chorus] I’m tired of starting over Tired of learning how to lose Tired of making something beautiful Just to watch it come unglued I’m tired of starting over Tired of saying, “I’ll be fine” I don’t need another lesson I just need one thing in my life To finally stay mine [Whispered ad-lib] Please stay… [Verse 2] So this time I stopped pretending I could fix it all tonight Stopped carrying every problem like it somehow made me right I started letting go of things I couldn’t control Started saving pieces of myself instead of giving up the whole I told myself it’s okay if I don’t have the answer Okay if some days I move slower than the others Okay if I need to rest without calling myself weak Okay if the man everybody needs Sometimes needs somebody to reach I can’t rebuild yesterday Can’t negotiate with things that chose to walk away Can’t make every loss become a lesson I can use Sometimes the healthiest thing is simply saying, “I lose” Then I get up when I can Not because I’m Superman Not because I don’t feel pain But because I’ve finally learned I don’t have to destroy myself To prove I can carry the weight [Pre-Chorus] Maybe starting over Doesn’t mean starting from nothing. Maybe… I’m bringing everything I survived With me. [Chorus] I’m tired of starting over But I’m learning how to begin Without pretending that the ending Didn’t hurt me where it did I’m tired of starting over But I don’t have to rebuild alone I can take these broken pieces And make somewhere new feel like home [Background vocal] Like home… [Verse 3] I used to think every ending meant I failed Like if something disappeared, then I must’ve missed the trail Now I understand some things don’t survive Not because you weren’t enough… Sometimes they’re just not meant to stay alive And that’s hard for a man like me to accept ‘Cause I’ve spent my whole life trying to fix what’s wrecked Thinking if I worked harder, loved harder, stayed longer I could somehow make the broken pieces fit together But I’m learning there are doors I don’t need to reopen Some chapters can end without leaving me broken Some losses don’t need revenge Some dreams can change shape and still make sense So if tomorrow knocks me down again I won’t call it the end I’ll breathe before I rebuild I’ll grieve before I pretend And if I have to start again… I won’t start from zero. I’ll start from everything I’ve already learned to survive. [Bridge] [Music drops almost completely] I’m tired… But tired isn’t finished. I’m hurt… But hurt isn’t hopeless. I lost things… But I didn’t lose myself. [Whispered ad-libs] Not this time. Not all of me. I’m still here. [Final Chorus] I’m tired of starting over But maybe that’s not what this is Maybe every time I thought I lost myself I was learning what I couldn’t live without I’m tired of starting over But I know something now I don’t have to become somebody new Every time life lets me down I can be this man… Bruised… Older… Still becoming… Still breathing… Still here. [Outro] [Distant piano returns] I don’t want another life. I just want… A chance to finally live this one. [Long pause] And if I have to start again… I’ll bring myself with me.
