[Verse 1] I went to find my courage in an empty space But my doubt grew ever larger Traded my storms for hurricanes Forced my smile through my darkness I used to bend to every whisper Trying hard to stay the same Now I’m choking on the “better” Still apologizing for my flame [Pre-Chorus] It happened slower than a summer storm A thousand tries and I’m still not reborn [Chorus] Oh, I tried In the blink of an eye, in the space of a year I tried But the guy in the mirror still disappears I reached for who I should’ve been But I can’t hold that shape I’m in And I hate what I became Look at me now—what a painful change [Verse 2] I cut my hair and broke my promises Practiced saying what I mean Kept chasing every broken feeling Like it might turn into a dream I laugh like nothing’s touching me But it’s hollow all the same Every step a little heavier Every breath the old name [Pre-Chorus] It happened slower than the turning tide I let go… and I stayed inside [Chorus] Oh, I tried In the blink of an eye, in the space of a year I tried But the guy in the mirror still isn’t clear I reached for who I should’ve been But I can’t hold that shape I’m in And I hate what I became Look at me now—what a painful change [Bridge] I’m not who I was And I wish I could say That every scar led me somewhere That every crack let in light But I’m fading, waiting Stuck in between And the worst part is I still believe [Final Chorus] Oh, I tried And it burns like the sun I can’t face I tried But I’m not standing in grace Still hiding my name Still playing it safe I’m tired, not free And I hate this change [Outro] I looked for my courage in a quiet room And walked out the same… too soon.
