WHY AM I SO WEAK? [INTRO — distant piano, cold ambient guitar, fragile breathy vocal] Ahhhhh... Ah... ahhh... Ooooooh... Ohhh... Aaahhhhh... Aaa—ahhh... [Long silence] Why... [VERSE 1 — intimate clean vocal] You called me when you needed someone But I wasn't there to hold you up I heard the fear behind your voice But I was too afraid to face it You were drowning right in front of me And all I had were empty words I wanted to be your shelter But I couldn't even stand myself I told myself that I would help you I told myself I'd never leave But when the darkness came around you I was nowhere you could see [PRE-CHORUS — rising emotional vocal] What kind of friend am I? If I couldn't stay beside you What kind of person am I? If I couldn't pull you through? [Short vocal cry] Aaahhh... Why... [CHORUS — soaring clean vocal, layered screams] WHY AM I SO WEAK?! When everybody needed me I wasn't there WHY AM I SO WEAK?! I watched the people that I loved Disappear One by one They walked away And now there's nothing left But the shame inside my chest Tell me... Why can't I be enough? [POST-CHORUS — broken vocal] Ohhhhh... Oh... I tried... I swear I tried... But I was too weak... [VERSE 2 — darker, restrained] I look at these empty hands And wonder what they ever built No talent No purpose No reason to believe in myself What am I good for? What can I give? I've spent my whole life searching And still don't know who I am Maybe I'm just a burden A weight they had to carry A parasite hiding behind The people who believed in me And I'm ashamed... God, I'm so ashamed... [PRE-BREAKDOWN — almost whispered] If I can't save my friends... How can I protect my family? If I can't stand for them... How can I ever become someone They can depend on? [BUILDING VOCAL CRY] Aaahhhhh... Aaaahhhhh... Please... Somebody tell me... What am I supposed to become? [BREAKDOWN — extremely slow, crushing] I DON'T WANT TO BE WEAK! I DON'T WANT TO RUN! I DON'T WANT TO WATCH ANOTHER PERSON I LOVE FADE AWAY! [Deep scream] WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! [VERSE 3 — RAP, dark introspective flow] Look at me now, what do I have to show? Years keep passing but I'm moving too slow Everybody I loved had a reason to go And I keep asking why I let them let go I said I'd be there, but I wasn't around They were calling my name while I buried my sound I wanted to help but I couldn't get out Now I'm drowning alone in the weight of my doubt No skill in my hands, no fire in my chest I compare myself to everyone else What can I become? What can I protect? How do I build a future when I hate myself? One day I'll have a family calling my name Will I be strong when they're facing the pain? Will I stand when the whole world attacks? Or will I disappear and repeat my past? I don't want another goodbye I don't want another empty room I don't want to look into their eyes And know I couldn't save them too So tell me, God, tell me what I need Give me a reason, give me something to believe I don't need to be the strongest alive I just need the strength to stay by their side [BREAKDOWN — instruments cut, vocal cry] Ohhhhh... Please... Help me... I don't want to be this person anymore. [LAST CHORUS — massive, final emotional release] WHY AM I SO WEAK?! When everybody needed me I wasn't there WHY AM I SO WEAK?! I watched the people that I loved Disappear But I'm still here I'm still breathing I'm still searching Maybe I can become Someone they can believe in Maybe I can learn to stay When everything falls apart Maybe I can finally become Strong enough to protect the ones I love I'M NOT ENOUGH YET! BUT I'M NOT DONE! [OUTRO — fragile vocal over fading guitar] Aaahhh... Ah... Ohhhhh... I'm still here... I'm still weak... But I'm not done.
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