[Verse 1] I’ve been sleeping with the lights on Like the dark knows what I did You keep asking if I’m alright And I keep lying through my lips I still wear the smile you gave me But it doesn’t fit the same Every mirror feels like mercy Every memory feels like blame [Pre-Chorus] And I hate that I know How to make it look easy When I’m barely breathing [Chorus] I’m becoming someone I’m not Just to be someone you want Laughing loud while I fall apart With a quiet war in my heart I say I’m fine, but I’m lost Paying every price, no cost And I don’t know when I forgot How to be someone I’m not [Verse 2] You said love was supposed to save me But it taught me how to hide Now I’m dancing at the party With a hurricane inside Every “miss you” feels rehearsed now Every “sorry” sounds the same I’m the actor, I’m the curtain I’m the one who takes the blame [Pre-Chorus] And I hate that I know How to keep you believing When I’m barely breathing [Chorus] I’m becoming someone I’m not Just to be someone you want Laughing loud while I fall apart With a quiet war in my heart I say I’m fine, but I’m lost Paying every price, no cost And I don’t know when I forgot How to be someone I’m not [Bridge] Maybe I loved you too hard Maybe I lost where I start Maybe the truth is I stayed ’Cause leaving would break your heart But what about mine? What about mine? What about all of the nights I survived just to look alive? [Final Chorus] I’m becoming someone I’m not Just to be someone you want But I can’t keep tearing apart Every piece of my own heart So I’ll be scared, I’ll be lost I’ll take the blame, take the cost But tonight I’m done getting caught Trying to be someone I’m not [Outro] Someone I’m not Someone I’m not I loved you enough But I lost me too much Someone I’m not
