Only When We’re High

Only When We’re High I only see you clearly when the room starts to melt Only touch you right when the chemicals help You kiss me like you mean it when the lights turn to waves But sober you don’t even remember my name We only fuck when the ceiling is breathing Only say “I love you” when the walls start repeating You hold me like forever when the acid kicks in Then morning comes and you’re gone again I’m only real when the serotonin’s high Only wanted when the dopamine’s fried You look at me like I’m everything you need Then crash comes and you can barely look at me Only when we’re high Only when we’re high You love me when we’re high Then leave me when we’re dry I keep the same tab in the same little bag Waiting for the version of you that doesn’t feel sad We don’t talk about feelings, we just fuck in the static You moan like you need me, then ghost like a habit I’m losing my mind in the best kind of way ‘Cause at least when we’re high you pretend that I stay You cry in my arms when the mushrooms hit right Then act like a stranger the rest of the night You only want me when your pupils are wide Only text me back when you’re peaking inside I know this ain’t love but it feels like it is When the drugs make us forget we don’t really exist Only when we’re high Only when we’re high You fuck me when we’re high Then kill me when we’re dry I know this ain’t love, it’s just chemical lies But I’d rather be used in your psychedelic highs Than feel like a ghost when the comedown arrives So pass me the tab, let’s pretend we’re alive You tell me you miss me when the serotonin spikes Then sober you act like I’m someone you don’t like I keep chasing the version of you that exists In the space between hits when you cease to resist I’m not even mad, I just don’t wanna be The version of me that you only can see When the lights start to bend and the colours collide And we both can pretend that we’re not dead inside Only when we’re high Only when we’re high You love me when we’re high Then leave me when we’re dry I know this ain’t love… But fuck it, let’s get high.