mascara ruined

[VERSE 1] I said I was fine Like it was a reflex Like lying to myself Was easier than texting you Your hoodie’s still breathing On the back of my chair I tell myself it’s just fabric But it still feels unfair I washed my face twice But you won’t come off Every mirror keeps asking What I did wrong ⸻ [PRE-CHORUS] I keep rewriting the night Like there was a version Where you stayed ⸻ [CHORUS] Mascara ruined Down my cheeks again Guess I cried harder Than I planned You said “we’ll talk soon” That was your goodbye Now my phone’s real quiet And I know why Mascara ruined Just like your promises Black streaks on a bathroom sink Where I finally admitted it ⸻ [VERSE 2] I replay your tone Not your words Trying to find the moment I crossed the line first You moved on so gentle Like nothing broke I’m still choking on sentences You never spoke Everyone says “You’ll be okay” But nobody tells you What to do with today ⸻ [PRE-CHORUS 2] I hate that I miss you More than you miss me I hate that I know it ⸻ [CHORUS] Mascara ruined On borrowed sheets I sleep on your side Out of habit, not need You’re doing better At least that’s what I hear I’m doing my makeup Just to wash it off here Mascara ruined Like my self-control I said I’d stop crying But I lied to my soul ⸻ [BRIDGE] (Strip back — almost spoken) I didn’t want forever I just wanted effort I didn’t need perfect I needed you honest If I was “too much” Why did you love me first? ⸻ [FINAL CHORUS] Mascara ruined But my eyes are open I see you clearer Now that you’re gone You didn’t break me You just didn’t stay There’s a difference I’ll learn someday Mascara ruined But I’m still here Wiping my face And breathing through tears ⸻ [OUTRO] I clean the sink Turn off the light Tomorrow can wait I survived tonight