(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰) I woke up tired of being awake My dreams called in sick, took the day off again Coffee stares back like “girl, don’t try” Even my thoughts are buffering tonight I’ve got plans, they’re all imaginary Goals on mute, ambitions secondary They say “push through,” I say “push where?” I’m emotionally unavailable, please leave it there (⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰) I laugh at jokes I don’t feel Smile like it’s part of the deal If life’s a party, I’m lost in the hall Holding my coat, hoping nobody calls (⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰) No motivation, no mental energy Running on fumes and bad memories If you need me strong, please reschedule I’m busy doing nothing—professionally incapable No motivation, no mental energy Even my shadow won’t follow me I’d try harder but honestly? That sounds like work and I’m off-duty (⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰) My phone says “live, laugh, love” I say “pick one,” let’s not shove Self-care bath? I just sat there wet Staring at tiles, full of regret Friends say “girl, you’re glowing!” Yeah, it’s the screen burn, thanks for noticing I’d cry it out but that takes effort So I dissociate like a certified expert (⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰) I joke about dying, don’t freak out please If I don’t laugh, I might actually scream Dark humor’s cheaper than therapy And comes with fewer side effects, allegedly (⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰) No motivation, no mental energy Brain on snooze, permanently I romanticize rest like it’s forbidden Sleep is a luxury item I haven’t been given No motivation, no mental energy I’d chase my dreams but they ghosted me If this is rock bottom, cool, I’ll decorate Put some lights on it, call it fate (⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰) Tiny bells ringing somewhere far Like hope tried texting but missed the bar I wave back lazily, “not today” Maybe tomorrow—if tomorrow behaves (⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)(⨰.⨰)
