I Watched You Light Up For Someone Else

[Verse 1] I know the sound your voice makes When you're actually there I know because I've heard it Just never aimed at me You'd say their name a different way Like it tasted better I'd say mine in my head sometimes Just to hear the difference I kept a running catalog Every laugh that wasn't earned Every room that rearranged itself The second they walked in I wasn't jealous of them I want to be clear about that I was jealous of what they showed me Was possible from you [Pre-Chorus] I don't blame them I want you to know I don't blame them They didn't ask to be the proof That you had more to give [Chorus] I watched you light up for someone else I memorized the frequency I watched you ask the follow-up I watched you actually see I didn't know that I was starving Until I watched you feed I watched you light up for someone else And learn exactly What I'd never be [Verse 2] You'd brag about them like a hobby Voice two registers higher I'd stand there in the same room Doing the translation It wasn't that they were better I worked that out eventually It's that something about them Hit a frequency in you That I just didn't carry I used to think I'd find it Some version of myself That finally made you lean forward The way you leaned for them I don't look for it anymore I stopped looking years ago But I still hear the difference In the register of your voice [Pre-Chorus] I don't blame them I'm not standing here blaming them They were just a kid too Trying to be seen [Chorus] I watched you light up for someone else I memorized the frequency I watched you ask the follow-up I watched you actually see I didn't know that I was starving Until I watched you feed I watched you light up for someone else And learn exactly What I'd never be [Bridge] Maybe it was never personal Maybe you just had a type Maybe some frequencies match easier And mine was never yours But I needed it to be mine I needed it to be mine I was standing right there I was standing right there Every single time [Breakdown] Not their fault Not their fault I know it's not their fault Not my fault Not my fault I'm still working on that part Your fault I won't say it But the silence says it Every time you say their name Like that [Chorus] I watched you light up for someone else I memorized the frequency I watched you ask the follow-up I watched you actually see I didn't know that I was starving Until I watched you feed I watched you light up for someone else And learn exactly What I'd never be [Outro] I hope they deserved it I think they probably did I hope they knew What they were holding I hope they held it carefully I hope they didn't waste it I never would have wasted it I never would have wasted it I would have kept it Every single day