everything i never said (intro)

Yeah... There's a lot of shit I never said. Not because I didn't have the words... I just never knew who the fuck was listening. So... I guess this is where I say it. Everything I never said. [Verse 1] I learned to hide every feeling I had in a melody, Smile for the world while the war was still ahead of me, Nobody knew what was underneath what they were seeing, I got good at pretending that I didn't need a reason. I kept every apology locked in the back of my head, Every "I love you" I swallowed, every "fuck you" I left unsaid, Every night that I cried when I told everybody I'm fine, Every person I lost that still lives in the back of my mind. I got scars I don't show, got some wounds I don't mention, Got some names in my phone that still trigger resentment, Got some people I miss that I wish I could call, But sometimes saying "I miss you" ain't enough to resolve. I've been fighting myself while I'm fighting for mine, Trying to turn all this pain into something that shines, They see Platinum! and think everything came with a price, They don't see all the nights I was breaking inside. [Pre-Hook] So if you hear me tonight, Don't just listen to the rhyme, There's a piece of my life In every word that I write. [Hook] This is everything I never said, All the words that were stuck in my head, All the tears that I swallowed instead, All the people I loved, all the blood that I bled. This is everything I never showed, Every secret I carried alone, Every time that I felt like I couldn't go on, I put it all in these songs. Everything I never said... Everything I never said... [Verse 2] I got love mixed with anger, got regret mixed with pride, Got a thousand different versions of myself that I hide, Got a heart that got broken but continued to beat, Got a past full of ghosts that keep following me. I remember being young with a head full of dreams, Now I'm older with a head full of memories, Trying to make something beautiful out of everything ugly, While the people I loved either changed or they judged me. I said "I'm okay" when I wasn't okay, Said "I don't give a fuck" when I cared every day, Said "I'm over it" when it stayed on my brain, Said "I don't need you" when I wanted you to stay. That's the shit that I never could say to your face, So I buried it deep and I carried the weight, Turned the pain into pages, the pages to songs, Now every time that I spit, I'm admitting I'm wrong. I ain't writing this album to paint me a saint, I'm putting blood on the page, I'm admitting my mistakes, If I hurt you, I'm sorry, if you hurt me, I forgive, Because carrying hate ain't the reason I live. [Hook] This is everything I never said, All the words that were stuck in my head, All the tears that I swallowed instead, All the people I loved, all the blood that I bled. This is everything I never showed, Every secret I carried alone, Every time that I felt like I couldn't go on, I put it all in these songs. Everything I never said... Everything I never said... [Bridge] And there's still more... More names. More memories. More mistakes. More people I loved. More people I lost. More things I should've said... But I didn't. So listen. [Final Verse] If you came here for the truth, then you're standing at the door, Seventeen more chapters waiting underneath the floor, Every track got a piece of me I couldn't let you see, Every melody's a mirror showing parts of what I used to be. You might hear love, you might hear hate, You might hear everything I couldn't communicate, You might hear the little kid, you might hear the grown man, You might hear the broken pieces finally forming a whole plan. I don't know where this road ends, I don't know who stays, I don't know how many memories I'm gonna carry to the grave. But I know one thing... I'm done keeping it inside. So this album isn't just music. It's every conversation I never had. Every goodbye I never finished. Every "I love you" I never said. Every "I'm sorry" that came too late. Every fucking thing... I kept inside. [Outro] Everything I never said... You're gonna hear it now. Welcome... To everything I never said.