I Still Say Your Name

# I STILL SAY YOUR NAME **(Verse 1)** I still say your name when I'm riding alone, Still catch myself reaching for my phone, Got so much I'd tell you if you picked up the line, But I know that damn number ain't ever gonna ring mine. I still say your name when somebody asks, "How you been holding up?" I just hide behind a laugh, 'Cause how do you explain that you're hurting inside When everybody thinks enough time should make it alright? I still say your name when I talk about home, Still say "my brother" even when I'm alone, And sometimes I swear that the room gets quiet Like somehow the whole world is listening when I say it. You ain't just a memory, you were part of my blood, Part of every fucked-up thing that we came from, And even though death took your place from my side, It never got permission to take you from my mind. **(Hook)** I still say your name, I still say your name, Even when it hurts, I ain't ashamed, I don't give a fuck if somebody says I should move on, How the hell do you move on when the love ain't gone? I still say your name, I still carry your flame, Years could pass and I'd do the same, 'Cause you were my brother before life took you away, And you'll be my brother every fucking day. **(Verse 2)** I still tell stories that start with you, Still laugh at the dumb shit we used to do, Then the laughter fades and I'm sitting there quiet, 'Cause remembering you always comes with the price. I wish you could see what I've become today, Every scar, every song, every step that I made, I wonder if you'd be proud when you hear what I write, Or tell me I'm overthinking shit like you did every night. There are days I feel strong, there are days I collapse, Days I swear I'm okay, then I'm right back in the past, A smell, a song, a picture, one little thing, And suddenly I'm sixteen again, hearing your voice in my head. I don't wanna forget you just because it gets easier, Don't wanna let the world turn your name into a whisper, So I'll speak it with pride every chance that I get, 'Cause forgetting my brother would feel like losing him twice. **(Hook)** I still say your name, I still say your name, Even when it hurts, I ain't ashamed, I don't give a fuck if somebody says I should move on, How the hell do you move on when the love ain't gone? I still say your name, I still carry your flame, Years could pass and I'd do the same, 'Cause you were my brother before life took you away, And you'll be my brother every fucking day. **(Bridge)** If heaven's got a place where the lost ones can hear, I hope every word reaches you wherever you are, I hope you know I never stopped loving you, Never stopped missing you, never stopped talking to you. And when they ask me why I still say your name, I'll tell 'em because love doesn't die with the grave, You left this world, but you didn't leave me, You're written in everything I'll ever be. **(Final Hook)** I still say your name, I still say your name, Through every fucking tear, through every change, I don't need permission to keep you alive, You're in every memory, every song that I write. I still say your name, And I always will, When the room gets quiet and the whole world stands still, Until the day that I finally see you again, I'll keep saying your name, I'll keep saying your name.