
[Intro â clean guitar, tape hiss, distant room reverb] (whispered, flat) I donât remember when it commenced (where did it start) Just that it never ceased (it never stopped) âž» [Verse 1 â clean male vocal, Midwest emo cadence] I wake up already defeated (here we go again) Like the day made up its mind (whatâs the point) Every notion feels second-rate (not good enough) Like Iâm borrowing someone elseâs time (tick-tock) I call it coping, you call it strength (whoâs right) I call it staying out of the ground (hold on) But if this is me grasping on (donât let go) Why do I feel buried now (suffocating) âž» [Pre-Chorus â clean with light grit, tension rising] I keep telling myself Iâll change (same old song) Like I havenât heard it before (deaf to it) Every promise dies of old age (broken words) Right on my bedroom floor (crumbling beneath) âž» [Chorus â emotional clean, restrained, bleak] I dug a trench and hid inside (safe in the dark) Called it peace, called it time (nothing left to hide) If I donât move, I donât sink (stay still) If I donât feel, I donât think (numb to it all) I donât wanna die (not yet) I just donât wanna wake up (not today) Every day (repeat it) To the same ending (inevitable) âž» [Post-Chorus â instrumental swell, detuned guitars dragging] âž» [Verse 2 â clean male vocal, heavier backing] I keep poisoning myself (self-destruct) Then asking why Iâm numb (foolâs call) I keep shaking hands with habits (bad ones) That already know how this ends (in the end) They say âheal yourselfâ like itâs easy (talk is cheap) Like I didnât try and fail (tried and tried) Like I didnât bleed quietly (in silence) Just to keep this shit from showing (mask up) âž» [Pre-Chorus 2 â clean + grit, more venom] I know the pattern by heart (etched in) I just donât wanna break it (fearful) Itâs the only thing that stayed (constant) When everything else escaped me (alone) âž» [Chorus 2 â full band, desperate but not hopeful] I dug a pit and called it home (familiar) I donât feel secure anywhere I go (unsettled) If this is rock bottom (too deep) Why do I still descend? (falling) I donât wanna die (fighting) I just donât wanna keep lying (truth hurts) Saying this fight (itâs endless) Isnât slowly killing me (bit by bit) âž» [Breakdown â deathcore, half-time, screamed male vocal] (short, violent, no space) I KNOW WHATâS WRONG (itâs clear) I JUST DONâT CARE ANYMORE (apathy speaks) I KNOW IâM DYING (truth hurts) IâM JUST BORED OF THE WAR (enough) DIG (deeper) DIG (keep going) DIG (unearthing) THEREâS (nothing there) NOTHING (hollow) LEFT (nothing left) âž» [Bridge â ambient drop, clean male vocal, exhausted] If thereâs a meaning (lost) It skipped me (forgotten) If thereâs a reason (itâs gone) It doesnât need me (or me) I tried forgiveness (forgive myself) It didnât stick (like glue) I tried to change (turn around) I just got tired of it (too tired) âž» [Final Chorus â stripped, intimate, fragile] I excavated until there was nothing (emptiness) No sign, no end (just void) If this is all I am (acceptance) Let it stop pretending (reveal) I donât wanna die (peacefully) I just wanna stop (enough) Feeling like I already did (release) âž» [Outro â abrupt, unresolved] (single sustained note, cut mid-word) Iâm stillâ [HARD STOP / SILENCE]

