The Future I Chose

[Verse 1] Life is a constant give and take Tiny forks in every road Circle dates I can’t erase Ghosts in clothes I used to own Every choice A loaded coin in the air Heads I lose a little something Tails I leave it back there When it breaks It breaks in silence In a kitchen sip by sip Every “what if” in the lightning Every almost on my lips [Pre-Chorus] I used to stare at the closed doors Counting all the lives I never lived Drowning in the maybe-might-have-beens Til there was nothing left to give [Chorus] This is the future I chose So I burn all the ghosts in my throat Yeah I could drown in the paths I didn’t take Or stand in the storm of the mess that I made This is the future I chose So I won’t look back when it snows I feel the cut of the wind on my face I’m done giving yesterday So much weight [Verse 2] Hit a rough patch Hit the brakes Laying awake in borrowed light Trading sleep for different endings Staring straight into the night Every door I didn’t open Every name I never called Built a castle made of questions I was dying in the walls [Bridge] [whispered vocals] I could have stayed I could have run I could have bowed out Before it all begun [crescendo] But every regret Was just a rusted key And I’m done unlocking Rooms that never set me free [Chorus] This is the future I chose So I burn all the ghosts in my throat Yeah I could drown in the paths I didn’t take Or stand in the storm of the mess that I made This is the future I chose So I won’t look back when it snows I feel the cut of the wind on my face I’m done giving yesterday So much weight [Bridge] [whispered vocals] You’ll have scars Either way Pick the pain You can hold today Better to burn Than stay half-awake Better to break Than never stake your claim [whispered vocals] No more living in the almost No more bowing to the echoes [crescendo] I’m the bruise I’m the bloom I’m the ending and the proof [Chorus] This is the future I chose So I burn all the ghosts in my throat Yeah I could drown in the paths I didn’t take Or stand in the storm of the mess that I made This is the future I chose So I won’t look back when it snows I feel the cut of the wind on my face I’m done giving yesterday So much weight [Outro] This is the future I chose [low vocal register] Say it soft till it grows Into something that glows This is the future I chose