Why Is the Room Still Moving

There’s mud on the floor but I don’t go outside Your coat is gone your smell is not I hear the walls chew through the night And I keep asking why Was it the silence I kept in my teeth Was it the bottle under the sink Was it my hands too slow to reach Was it the truth I wouldn’t think I stand in the kitchen with nowhere to stand Half of a man with blood on his plans And I don’t know where the door went I don’t know what my name meant I don’t know what I broke first Your heart or the curse Why why why did the room turn black Why why why don’t the roads go back I drag my bones through the same damn night I call your name and the dogs don’t bite Why why why am I still here With the lights burned out and the mirror near Did I love you wrong or too late Did I make a god of my own bad weight Did I talk like fire and sleep like stone Did I build a house then leave you alone Your side of the bed is a clean white lie Mine is a ditch where the hours die And I don’t know what the clock wants I don’t know why my chest knocks I don’t know what I’m good for Since you shut the door Why why why did the room turn black Why why why don’t the roads go back I drag my bones through the same damn night I call your name and the dogs don’t bite Why why why am I still here With the lights burned out and the mirror near No thunder no mercy No gospel no sign Just a low bad hum in the power line No angel no answer No clean sunrise Just my mouth full of gravel and your last goodbye I laugh like a stranger I kneel like a thief I ask the floorboards what they took from me Was it me was it me Was it me was it me Was it me or the way I stayed Was it love or the debt we paid Was it me was it me Tell me once and let me bleed Why why why did the room turn black Why why why don’t the roads go back I drag my bones through the same damn night I call your name but it don’t sound right Why why why am I still here With the lights burned out and your ghost so near There’s mud on the floor but I don’t go outside Your coat is gone Your smell is not I keep asking why I keep asking why