Can't remember when I last felt light Scrolling back through weeks of gray on gray Used to know what happy felt like, right? Don't know when it went away Try to force a smile, it won't take hold Everything's like looking through a screen This should scare me more, or so I'm told Can't even panic at this in-between Nothing lands, nothing sticks It's all white noise and static I don't feel the loss of it That's what's most dramatic What if this is permanent? What if I forgot the trick? Nothing lands, nothing sticks Nothing, nothing, nothing hits Coffee tastes like water, colors fade Music that I loved just sounds like noise Friends are talking, I'm just sitting there Going through motions, can't find my voice Should be crying, should be raging, should be Something other than this hollow shell Watching myself not care is almost funny Can't even mourn this living hell Nothing lands, nothing sticks It's all white noise and static I don't feel the loss of it That's what's most dramatic What if this is permanent? What if I forgot the trick? Nothing lands, nothing sticks Nothing, nothing, nothing hits I don't care that I don't care That's the knife that cuts the deepest Want to want to feel despair But I can't even fucking reach it Numb to being numb Flat to being flat I just want my feelings back Nothing lands, nothing sticks It's all white noise and static I don't feel the loss of it That's what's most catastrophic What if this is permanent? What if I just forget? Nothing lands, nothing sticks Nothing, nothing, nothing hits Nothing lands, nothing sticks Nothing, nothing, nothing