You Changed How It Beats

**[Intro]** Yeah... You probably don't even realize how much you changed me. Not just what you did... What it turned me into. **[Verse 1]** You taught me how to question every "I love you" I hear, Taught me how to smile while I'm drowning in fear, Taught me every promise comes with something to lose, Now I second-guess affection before I let it get through. You took the person who would give you the world, Turned him into somebody who don't trust when he's loved, I used to wear my heart like it wasn't something to guard, Now I keep it behind walls and I don't let nobody start. You don't know how many nights I replayed what happened, Trying to find the exact moment everything fractured, Wondering if I was different, would it change the reaction, Wondering if I loved harder, could I alter the ending. But I can't rewrite the past with a pen in my hand, Can't go back to the person I was when this began, You left me with a version of myself I don't understand, And I spent years trying to put him back together again. **[Pre-Hook]** You didn't just break my heart... You changed how it beats. **[Hook]** Look what you did to me, Look what you made me become, I used to believe in love, Now I run when it comes. Look what you did to me, I don't trust like I used to, I still carry every scar from the things that you put me through. I don't hate you... But I'll never be the person I was... Before you did this to me. **[Verse 2]** Now I'm hyper-aware, every detail gets analyzed, Every pause in a text gets interpreted ten different times, Every change in your tone got me reading between lines, Every "trust me" sounds like another fucking warning sign. I became emotionally guarded, partially hardened, Heart full of fragments, regardless I'm guarded, Started confusing independence with never depending, Started calling it strength when I was scared of connecting. That's what you did... You made distance feel safer than intimacy, Made vulnerability feel like an enemy, Made me question whether anybody really meant what they said, Made me build a fortress around everything in my chest. And the fucked-up part? I still remember the good. Still remember the nights when I thought that you understood, Still remember believing that forever meant forever, Now whenever somebody says it, I hear "until something gets better." I don't want revenge, I don't need you to suffer, I just wish you'd understand why I became so much tougher, Because you didn't just leave... You left a lesson behind. And that lesson follows me every fucking time somebody gets close. **[Pre-Hook]** You didn't just break my heart... You changed how it beats. **[Hook]** Look what you did to me, Look what you made me become, I used to believe in love, Now I run when it comes. Look what you did to me, I don't trust like I used to, I still carry every scar from the things that you put me through. I don't hate you... But I'll never be the person I was... Before you did this to me. **[Bridge]** Maybe someday I'll forgive you. Maybe someday I'll forgive myself. For staying. For trusting. For believing. For thinking love was supposed to hurt like this. **[Final Verse]** Now I'm piecing myself together with the parts that survived, Trying to separate the truth from the lies, Trying to learn that not everybody who loves me will leave, Trying to stop punishing the future for what happened to me. You were a chapter, but you don't get the final page, You caused damage, but you don't get to own every change, Yeah, you altered how I see it, but you don't control my fate, I can carry what you did without becoming what you made. So I won't let the anger be the only thing that remains, Won't let your name become synonymous with pain, Won't let every new connection get destroyed by your mistakes, I'm taking back the pieces that I gave away. You changed me... That's true. But you don't get to decide who I become after you. That's mine. **[Final Hook]** Look what you did to me, Look what you made me become, I used to believe in love, Now I run when it comes. Look what you did to me, I don't trust like I used to, I still carry every scar from the things that you put me through. I don't hate you... But I'll never be the person I was... Before you did this to me. **[Outro]** You changed me. But you don't own me. That's the difference.