Christmas Day, four years ago The last video I have of you Playing with them, voices high I didn't know to say goodbye This is forever And I carry it alone Numb across the surface But the ache has made a home They ask sometimes, I tell simple lies But the truth sits heavy in my chest What really happened, I do my best Oh God, I do my best This is forever Every birthday, every milestone Every moment you're not here at home I still send you reels that make me laugh, falling into empty air And they ask me questions I can't answer, measuring the truth with care I watch them flip and fly and play, the chaos you would love Four years of carrying what happened, and it's never been enough This is forever This is forever This is forever This is forever This is forever This is forever
