This one goes out to all my bros Oh you're so cool and vulgar filthy and risque. So tough cold-blooded. Do you feel powerful? Do you feel pain? Throwing middle fingers with a smile on your face. Everything's a sex joke when you just want to get laid. Still, you make me laugh. So what's that say? Damnit, why do I love you? The cigarette in your mouth while you're taking a piss. The way you lounge back with your arm behind your head. The crooked joker smile. Black heart twisted with gold. Get a thrill from selling your soul. God, you love being an asshole. No feelings. No fucks. You calm me down. I look up to you. I can't help it. But you're a middle finger and I'm a peace sign. Not that I don't enjoy a deserved flip off from time to time. You'd think they'd be perfect for each other, but you don't feel the rush, the zap, the hair stand up on the back of your neck when I'm just being my self. Too nice. Too honest. Always saying sorry. Chain-smoking cigarettes and talking talking talking. Vulnerable like a walking exposed nerve the heart on my sleeve is endlessly bleeding (and you don't see the strength in that) Social Justice Warrior Emo Kid Grew up under a rock College educated idiot Half your jokes go over my head, or I just don't think they're that funny. They don't strike me. Or I laugh because you're being ridiculous. Vulgar. Risque. It is fun to push boundaries. But my heart is gold twisted with black. And I hate being an asshole. I usually just can't help it. I prefer chaotic good. Isn't that where we intersect? You're going to leave me alone and take for granted I'll be here if you ever wanted or needed to come back. Even if it's just to leave again. Or you really feel better off treating me like I'm dead. Maybe you have no plan. Maybe you have no worry of what might have been had you stayed in my life. Or what will be without you in it. Because you're a middle finger and I'm a peace sign and you went right through me when I should have been the one who cut you off but I loved you instead. I still just don't understand why you would have said it so much if you really didn't love me back.
