I found you somewhere in Nebraska, Then again in Florida heat. Same old smile, same old lies, Same hands that used to reach for me. You said I was your only, Said the distance made us strong. But while I was counting down the days, You were already moving on. I stood outside in the rain, Let it fall all over me. Couldn’t tell what was water, Couldn’t tell what was grief. And I cried alone in the dark, With your name breaking my chest. You gave your love to everybody, And somehow I got what was left. You loved everywhere but here, Touched every heart but mine. I was waiting in the wreckage, Begging God to change your mind. You were someone else’s darling, While I was yours in every dream. Now I’m crying in the rain, Still in love with who you used to be. Florida had your body, Nebraska had your time. I had all the promises You only made to keep me blind. I keep hearing your excuses, Like a song I can’t escape. Every “baby, I’m sorry” Came a little too late. And I hate that I still want you, After all the hell you made. Hate that I still miss you, When you couldn’t even stay. You loved everywhere but here, Touched every heart but mine. I was waiting in the wreckage, Begging God to change your mind. You were someone else’s darling, While I was yours in every dream. Now I’m crying in the rain, Still in love with who you used to be. Tell me, did I cross your mind When you were lying next to him? Did my love feel like a ghost You could bury and forget? Was I just the one back home, The one who loved too much? The one you called when you were lonely, But never chose enough? You loved everywhere but here, Touched every heart but mine. I was waiting in the wreckage, Begging God to change your mind. You were someone else’s darling, While I was yours in every dream. Now I’m crying in the rain, Still in love with who you used to be. Maybe one day I’ll forgive you. Maybe one day I’ll be clean. Maybe one day your memory Won’t be standing next to me. But tonight the rain keeps falling, And I’m too tired to leave. Still crying for the man I lost, Still loving who I thought you’d be.
