▌│█║▌║▌║ 𝙇𝙮𝙧𝙞𝙘𝙨 𝙗𝙮 𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥𝙎 ║▌║▌║█│▌ [Hook] why can't I show emotions i wish I could just control them even in moments of pure sorrow i can't show my emotions why can't I show emotions [Verse 1] my biggest problem is my lack of emotion lack of empathy, feel like a broken machine losing itself, in endless entropy, wish someone could teach me how to feel please tell me how to act, when everyone around me gets lost in the wide-ranged fields of their acts, me being the only one, not knowing how to discuss it, in these moments I feel embarrassed and disgusted because I can't even shed a tear, even if someone regrets losing a life right in front of me, in these situations I always break down in fear, they might abandon me, cause I just don't know how to feel what the fuck is wrong with me, can't even look at my face fuck, I hate myself [Bridge] back at it, can't get it, you cry bitter tears, while I forget it, in just a few seconds, can't let it get to myself even if I try, my emotions just won't thrive, believe me when I say there is nothing more that I want than being able to cry [Hook] why can't I show emotions i wish I could just control them even in moments of pure sorrow i can't show my emotions why can't I show emotions [Verse 2] I'm a very rational type of guy if it doesn't kill me, I'll just let it slide I'm not even thinking about it not leaving my side because if you just accept it, you don't even have to try I'll just soak this shit up like a sponge, put it in the sun and let it dry I got so used to being sad, mad, falling teeth-first on asphalt, losing my shit so bad that, at this point, this shit doesn't even feel half as bad call it trauma if you want, I just call this mindset whack-ass [Verse 3] back in the day I was everyone's pastoral care, my mental problems got ignored, how could I even dare, disregarding my own needs, you can't imagine how much I wanted to burst out in tears now a few years later I couldn't care less about the shit that erupts your fears the amount of trauma dumped on my shoulders is way too heavy, to still care after all those years, this package that I'm carrying got way too hefty do you get me? well obviously you do not, otherwise y'all would have acted differently and maybe even asked at least once what is upsetting me [Bridge] back at it, can't get it, you cry bitter tears, while I forget it, in just a few seconds, can't let it get to myself even if I try, my emotions just won't thrive, believe me when I say there is nothing more that I want than being able to cry [Hook] why can't I show emotions i wish I could just control them even in moments of pure sorrow i can't show my emotions why can't I show emotions
