Two Graves by Cain Still Bleeds

[Intro]
I begged You... I begged You to save her. I didn’t ask for a miracle. I just wanted one more day. You didn’t just take her. You took everything that made me want to live.

[Verse 1]
She was tired. Said her back hurt. Said maybe she should just stay home. But I begged her to come out with me. Told her we’d keep it chill. Told her I’d be clean. She smiled and said “okay” 'cause she still believed in the man I swore I was tryin’ to be. She was five months in — belly just showin’, still dancin’ in flip flops and singin’ along to every wrong song. And I thought maybe... just maybe, that night could mean somethin’ good.

[Verse 2]
But I slipped. I scored. She watched me with that look like she'd seen it all before. I said, “Just a little, just to calm the edge,” but she didn’t need to calm a damn thing. I was the storm. I passed her a line like a coward. She hesitated... then trusted me. I wish she hadn’t. I wish I’d stopped her. I wish a thousand things. But I let it happen. And when she hit the floor, I SCREAMED HER NAME like GOD owed ME SOMETHING!

[Pre-Chorus]
I held her in my lap, arms shakin’, cryin’ like a boy again. Told her to breathe. Begged her to stay. I screamed out loud to whatever was listenin’. “Take me, not her. Please. Please.” But there was nothin’. No answer. Just the sound of my voice echoing back like I was the only thing left in the world.

[Chorus]
Two graves, both got my name on ‘em. One for her, one for the child I’ll never hold. I left my soul in that hospital parking lot, screamin’ prayers at a God I don’t know. Two graves, and I dug ‘em both with my own hands. Thought I had time to make things right. Turns out I was the reason time ran out.

[Verse 3]
I remember the sonogram. That little flicker of life. She cried when she saw it. Said it looked like a star. I said we’d name him after her dad. She laughed and said only if I stayed clean. She was always makin’ deals with dreams... while I was makin’ deals with demons. I promised I’d change. But I kept breakin’ that promise ‘til there was no one left to lie to but the mirror.

[Verse 4]
She died on a Thursday. I remember because the nurse called me “sir” like I deserved respect. I watched the door close behind that gurney and I knew I’d never see her smile again. Knew I’d never hear her say his name. Knew the last good thing in my life just left this earth... and I was the one who opened the door.

[Pre-Chorus]
I still see her in dreams. She ain’t mad. That’s the part that hurts the most. She just holds him, rocks him slow, and never speaks. I beg her to yell, to curse, to say anything. But she don’t. Like even in death... she still loves me more than I ever deserved.

[Final Chorus]
Two graves, both got my blood in ‘em. Two hearts I should’ve died to defend. I gave up everything good I ever had, and I still ain’t paid for what I did. I visit them both when the world gets quiet, lay down flowers like they matter now. But no prayer, no song, no scream at the sky is bringin’ them back somehow.

[Outro]
If there’s a Hell, I been livin’ in it ever since. And if there’s a Heaven... maybe she’s there. Rockin’ him slow. Hummin’ that old song. The one she wanted to play at our wedding. The one I can’t listen to anymore.

3249/7500

[Intro] I begged You... I begged You to save her. I didn’t ask for a miracle. I just wanted one more day. You didn’t just take her. You took everything that made me want to live. [Verse 1] She was tired. Said her back hurt. Said maybe she should just stay home. But I begged her to come out with me. Told her we’d keep it chill. Told her I’d be clean. She smiled and said “okay” 'cause she still believed in the man I swore I was tryin’ to be. She was five months in — belly just showin’, still dancin’ in flip flops and singin’ along to every wrong song. And I thought maybe... just maybe, that night could mean somethin’ good. [Verse 2] But I slipped. I scored. She watched me with that look like she'd seen it all before. I said, “Just a little, just to calm the edge,” but she didn’t need to calm a damn thing. I was the storm. I passed her a line like a coward. She hesitated... then trusted me. I wish she hadn’t. I wish I’d stopped her. I wish a thousand things. But I let it happen. And when she hit the floor, I SCREAMED HER NAME like GOD owed ME SOMETHING! [Pre-Chorus] I held her in my lap, arms shakin’, cryin’ like a boy again. Told her to breathe. Begged her to stay. I screamed out loud to whatever was listenin’. “Take me, not her. Please. Please.” But there was nothin’. No answer. Just the sound of my voice echoing back like I was the only thing left in the world. [Chorus] Two graves, both got my name on ‘em. One for her, one for the child I’ll never hold. I left my soul in that hospital parking lot, screamin’ prayers at a God I don’t know. Two graves, and I dug ‘em both with my own hands. Thought I had time to make things right. Turns out I was the reason time ran out. [Verse 3] I remember the sonogram. That little flicker of life. She cried when she saw it. Said it looked like a star. I said we’d name him after her dad. She laughed and said only if I stayed clean. She was always makin’ deals with dreams... while I was makin’ deals with demons. I promised I’d change. But I kept breakin’ that promise ‘til there was no one left to lie to but the mirror. [Verse 4] She died on a Thursday. I remember because the nurse called me “sir” like I deserved respect. I watched the door close behind that gurney and I knew I’d never see her smile again. Knew I’d never hear her say his name. Knew the last good thing in my life just left this earth... and I was the one who opened the door. [Pre-Chorus] I still see her in dreams. She ain’t mad. That’s the part that hurts the most. She just holds him, rocks him slow, and never speaks. I beg her to yell, to curse, to say anything. But she don’t. Like even in death... she still loves me more than I ever deserved. [Final Chorus] Two graves, both got my blood in ‘em. Two hearts I should’ve died to defend. I gave up everything good I ever had, and I still ain’t paid for what I did. I visit them both when the world gets quiet, lay down flowers like they matter now. But no prayer, no song, no scream at the sky is bringin’ them back somehow. [Outro] If there’s a Hell, I been livin’ in it ever since. And if there’s a Heaven... maybe she’s there. Rockin’ him slow. Hummin’ that old song. The one she wanted to play at our wedding. The one I can’t listen to anymore.

0/500