**Verse 1** I spent years calling myself thunder Because everything around me shook Every slammed door, every broken promise Every page they changed inside the book I thought if chaos followed closely Then chaos must have been my name So I stood beneath the lightning And apologized for every flame I learned to say, *Maybe it was me* Before anybody had to ask Took the weight of every ending And wore it like a mask But I’m starting to see something I was too afraid to know I was standing in the weather I was never what made it blow **Pre-Chorus** I was drenched I was shaking I was trying to get through But surviving in the storm Didn’t mean I summoned it too **Chorus** I was never the storm I was the one caught in the rain I was the one still holding pieces Trying to shelter what remained I was never the thunder I was the hands against the door Trying to keep five hearts from breaking While the whole sky hit the floor I was never the storm I just learned to wear its name Because blaming myself was easier Than admitting where the damage came But I’m done calling every bruise Evidence that I was wrong I was standing in the storm I was never the storm **Verse 2** I was healing while they talked I was building while they lied I was trying to make a future While old stories multiplied And every time the ground moved under us I thought I should have known How to hold the whole world steady With two hands and love alone But love cannot control a rumor And truth can still be dragged through mud And sometimes people tell a version That lets them sleep with what they’ve done I used to carry that like proof That somehow I deserved the loss Now I’m asking who benefited Every time I paid the cost **Pre-Chorus** I was hurting I was human I was trying to survive And maybe that’s not weakness Maybe that means I stayed alive **Chorus** I was never the storm I was the one caught in the rain I was the one still holding pieces Trying to shelter what remained I was never the thunder I was the hands against the door Trying to keep five hearts from breaking While the whole sky hit the floor I was never the storm I just learned to wear its name Because blaming myself was easier Than admitting where the damage came But I’m done calling every bruise Evidence that I was wrong I was standing in the storm I was never the storm **Bridge** Maybe anger isn’t ugly Maybe sometimes anger knows Where grief has been misplaced And where the truth was buried low Maybe I can finally look back Without putting myself on trial Maybe every accusation Doesn’t have to stay awhile I can say I was exhausted I can say I made mistakes I can own the things that were mine Without carrying what was fake I can be imperfect And still not be the cause I can be wounded Without becoming what I lost **Breakdown** I was there. I was hurt. I was scared. I was trying. That is not the same thing As being the storm. **Final Chorus** I was never the storm I was the one who kept on standing I was the one still loving five hearts When nothing went according to planning I was never the thunder I was the voice beneath the roar Saying, *I’m still here, I still love you* Even when I couldn’t do more I was never the storm And I’m finally saying it out loud I won’t keep confusing survival With the wreckage all around I can grieve what it destroyed Without becoming what went wrong I was standing in the storm I survived the storm I was never the storm **Outro** Let the thunder keep its name. Let the rain belong to the sky. I’ve carried weather long enough. I am not what happened to me.
