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08 — You Don't Get To Miss me

# YOU DON'T GET TO MISS ME [Intro — soft piano, distant room tone] You can leave. Just don't come back and call it love when you start missing what you broke. [Verse 1 — intimate, restrained] You said you needed something different Said maybe we were holding on too long I watched you pack up all our little futures Like none of them belonged I didn't chase you down the hallway Didn't make a scene out in the rain I just stood there learning in one evening How a home becomes a place And I know People change People leave People find another road But don't come back With shaking hands Like I'm the one who let you go [Pre-Chorus — cello enters softly] 'Cause I was here When you stopped choosing me I was here When you made leaving look easy So if the empty nights Start telling you my name Remember— [Chorus — wide melody, restrained strings] You don't get to miss me now You don't get to say it hurts somehow You were the one who let me down You were the one who walked out You don't get to need me late at night Just because the new life don't feel right I was yours when you had me around You don't get to miss me now [Post-Chorus — piano, distant harmony] Not now Not after all of that You don't get to miss me now [Verse 2 — warmer low strings, still sparse] I learned to eat at tables meant for two Learned to leave your side of the bed cold Learned that healing isn't getting over you It's getting used to what you chose I stopped rehearsing conversations Stopped imagining you at my door Stopped asking every mutual friend If you ever asked about me anymore And some nights Yeah, I still break Some songs I still can't play But missing you And wanting you Aren't the same thing anyway You don't get to call that growth If all you did was go away Then turn around when being free Didn't feel the way you thought it would feel [Pre-Chorus — vocal more exposed] I would've stayed Through every ugly part I would've fought For every piece of us But you taught me What love sounds like When one heart finally gives up So if loneliness Starts dressing up like love Don't confuse the two [Chorus — fuller strings, soft drums] You don't get to miss me now You don't get to say it hurts somehow You were the one who let me down You were the one who walked out You don't get to need me late at night Just because the new life don't feel right I was yours when you had me around You don't get to miss me now [Bridge — everything drops to piano] Maybe that's cruel Maybe that's pain talking Maybe if you called tonight I'd stare at your name too long Maybe part of me Would still know your breathing Maybe part of me Would still want to answer That's why I can't Because I know myself And I know you And one "I miss you" Could undo months I barely survived [Pause] So miss me. Just don't make it my problem. [Final Chorus — full emotional lift, strings and harmonies] You don't get to miss me now You don't get to turn this whole thing around You were the one who shut me out You were the one who chose goodbye You don't get to need me late at night You don't get my heart just 'cause yours ain't right I was yours when you had me around You don't get to miss me now You don't get to call me home After teaching me to live alone You don't get the man I became Just because you finally feel my name You had me then You lost me then And that's the part You gotta live with now [Final Refrain — instruments falling away] You can miss me You can miss the way I loved you You can miss the way I stayed You can miss the version of yourself That only existed When I was there But you don't get to come back And make me carry that too [Outro — piano only] I carried enough. You left. I stayed. I healed. So if it hurts now... Let it. You don't get to miss me now.