I can keep it all together, least that's what I tell myself Smile like nothing ever touched me, keep the rest up on the shelf But lately I've been slipping, can't keep it hidden like before Still got the mask in place, but it don't hide me anymore Every crack lets something through More than I was meaning to I still try to keep control But the cracks are starting to show I could be laughing with the room, really mean it when I do Then one thought can hit me sideways, change the whole mood out the blue I get quiet for a second, somebody ask me, “You good?” I say “yeah” before they finish, quicker than I probably should I don't mean to shut 'em out, that's just how I've always been Some things make it to my mouth, some never make it past my head So I laugh and change the subject, let the moment carry on Most people let it go, the ones who know me know I'm off I got good at looking normal, good at keeping shit contained Good at showing up the same even when I don't feel the same I can hide what's underneath, can't hide every trace of it Little things start leaking through the places you thought buried it I can keep it all together, least that's what I tell myself Smile like nothing ever touched me, keep the rest up on the shelf But lately I've been slipping, can't keep it hidden like before Still got the mask in place, but it don't hide me anymore Every crack lets something through More than I was meaning to I still try to keep control But the cracks are starting to show People who know me know the difference even when I play it straight Know when quiet means I'm peaceful, know when something's out of place I can change the conversation, put a laugh behind the sentence Still they catch the little pause, still they feel the difference Part of me is glad they notice, part of me wishes they missed it When somebody sees the cracks, it's hard to keep pretending I've gotten good at swallowing the words I almost say But lately even silence has been giving me away I don't live inside the past, I just know it travels with me And the future still looks good, I just fear what it might bring me Said forgiveness with my lips before my heart was really there Some wins barely made a sound, some losses changed the air I can keep it all together, least that's what I tell myself Smile like nothing ever touched me, keep the rest up on the shelf But lately I've been slipping, can't keep it hidden like before Still got the mask in place, but it don't hide me anymore Every crack lets something through More than I was meaning to I still try to keep control But the cracks are starting to show Still got the mask in place... But the cracks let something show Kept so much behind it Now there's pieces slipping through More than I was meaning to... More than I was meaning to... Still got the mask on... But the cracks are starting to show
