We kept our hands inside the lines While every silence crossed them first You'd lean close enough to change the air Then leave me there to call it nothing I learned the shape of almost Better than I learned to let it go You never promised me a thing And somehow That hurt the most I thought the years would make it smaller They only taught me How to hide it You were never mine to lose So why does losing nothing Hurt this much? We never gave it any name But I still hear it In the quiet I stopped waiting for another ending But nothing in me Stopped wanting one I watched the chance grow old between us Without either of us touching it We got good at being close enough To make the distance feel dishonest Now I can stand beside you And keep every old wound still You don't need to know How much of me Stayed there I know exactly what this is That doesn't make it Easier to carry You were never mine to lose So why does losing nothing Hurt this much? We never gave it any name But I still hear it In the quiet I stopped waiting for another ending But nothing in me Stopped wanting one I KNOW IT ISN'T COMING I KNOW WHAT THIS WILL NEVER BE SO WHY THE FUCK IS SOME PART OF ME STILL WAITING WHERE YOU LEFT IT I'M NOT ASKING FOR ANOTHER CHANCE I'M ASKING WHY THIS NEVER LEARNED TO DIE You were never mine to lose So why does losing nothing Still feel like this? We never gave it any name Maybe that's why It never ended I know there is no other ending I know exactly where this stays Some things never become anything And still Never Go away
