Tear Me Open

Can you hear me? Or am I already gone? I taste rust on my tongue again Words I swallow cut deeper than friends Every mirror’s a loaded gun I pull the trigger just to feel someone Pressure in my skull keeps caving in All the noise outside sounds just like sin I’m a wound that won’t stay closed A body built from overdose (of fear, not drugs) The silence crawls under my skin Begging me to let it in Tear me open, make me feel! Rip the numbness, let it heal! I’m screaming but it’s all surreal— No one hears what I conceal! I choke on words I’ll never say They rot inside me every day You say “hold on,” but you don’t know I’m holding fire, afraid to show I’m falling through the sound again Can’t tell where I stop, where I begin Tear me open, make me feel! Rip the numbness, let it heal! I’m screaming but it’s all surreal— No one hears what I conceal! Bury the shame in static and noise! I’m not your toy, I’m not your void! Everything I am, you break apart— Now hear the beating of my heart! I’m still here! I’m still here! Tear me open, let me feel! Break these walls I used to build! Every scar is something real— I’m still fighting not to kneel! Can you hear me? Or am I already gone…