[Intro] ... [Verse 1 ] Sitting here with the weight of the gun in my hand It's like I don't know what the universe wants, I don't understand I've seen a million possibilities cross my desk But I couldn't hold onto just one even giving my best I used to love a woman who couldn't return it She had her issues, made an excuse for her shit I spent the next few years worshipping a woman, Who would rather I die And now I still can't picture the future without her, No matter how hard I try (oh God I fucking try!) [Pre-Chorus] The weight of it isn't the metal It's everything the metal means Every time I gave the best of me To something built on sand And ended up right here With the weight of this gun in my hand [Chorus — cinematic production swelling, the enormity arriving] This is what it feels like When the math stops adding up When you've poured everything you had Into a half empty cup When the person that you loved When the person that you loved Was the hand that held you down And you still reach for that hand Even as you were drowned This is the room This is the weight This is the moment This is where I am Right here [Verse 2] I built a cathedral out of someone else's indifference Called it love because I didn't know the difference Carried every version of her cruelty like a gift Like if I held on long enough, it would somehow shift I used to think the problem lived inside of me That if I fixed enough of what was broken I'd be free But you can't patch the ceiling of a house That has no floor And I was building Building Building While she walked right out the door (goodbye) [Pre-Chorus] The weight of it isn't the metal It's everything the metal means Every time I gave the best of me To something built on sand And ended up right here With the weight of this gun in my hand [Chorus] This is what it feels like When the math stops adding up When you've poured everything you had Into a half empty cup When the person that you loved Was the hand that held you down And you still reach for that hand Even as you were drowned This is the room This is the weight This is the moment This is where I am Right here [Bridge] I don't know whats kept me here I couldn't tell you if you asked Maybe it was nothing more Than the breath that came After the last Just the next breath Arriving Without asking permission no say [Final section] [Spoken, barely audible] I was still here When the next breath came And the one after that And the one after that I don't know why I'm not going to pretend I know why I'm just going to tell you That the breath kept coming And I let it…maybe that’s all we can do.
