[Intro – Very soft, natural melodic singing; solo piano] The sun makes me think of my mom. The rain and clouds always make me think of you. Spencer is in everything I see. Feels like I never get a chance To think about myself. And every time I do, Every time something puts a smile on my face, I immediately feel guilty, And shame myself Like it's something I don't deserve. [Pre-Chorus – Quiet, vulnerable singing] Why can't I just let myself Be happy for once? Why does everything I think about Always end in tears? I don't wanna feel like this anymore. [Chorus – a gentle melodic rise, emotionally vulnerable] I'm crying, crying, crying... Till nothing's coming out. But it doesn't stop the feeling, It doesn't stop the pain. Like a wounded animal Trying to find shelter, Slowly bleeding out in the rain. Just looking for somewhere warm, On this cloudy day, Somewhere to get out of this rain. [Verse 2 – Intimate, steady melody] You question whether there were two sides of me, And honestly, I think there's three. There's the man the world gets to see. There's the man I was when I was with you— You knew parts of me nobody else knew. And there's the man I'm still trying to be. And I know that sounds confusing. I know I've done things you could never forgive. But I'm not asking you to forgive them. God knows I won't. I'm just asking you To be able to live with them. You don't have to worry about my wounds. I hope my wounds will eventually heal someday. I just hope that yours will too. I just hope that yours will too. [Refrain – Gentle melodic rise, no belting] Why can't I just let myself Be happy for once? Why does everything I think about Always end in tears? I'm crying, crying, crying... Till nothing's coming out. But it doesn't stop the feeling, It doesn't stop the pain. [Bridge – Reflective, softly sung, unhurried] There's a weird, strange comfort in solitude. I used to only feel its loneliness. But now I recognize its strength, The ability to reflect and grow. Because two flowers Drinking from the same water Stunt each other's growth. But what happens When you've already grown? When the water you need Is just enough to sustain yourself? Is it possible To go back to sharing the same source? Or is that the very thing That inevitably makes you fade away? [Outro – Tender, fragile, fully sung] So I'll stop drinking And be reborn somewhere else. Hopefully somewhere Where the pain that I'm causing I'm only doing to myself. Even if our roots don't intertwine, That doesn't mean I'll disappear. When Spencer needs his father, I'll be there, through every season. And you and him can grow Into the beautiful, lovely flowers That you were always meant to be. [Final lines – Very soft, natural melodic singing] And always already were. [End – Gentle solo piano fades into silence]
