[Verse 1] I saw your face go still When I raised my voice again The room got small and cold And I knew what I had been I called it stress, called it pain Called it anything but me But your silence cut deeper Than a knife ever could be Oh shit I messed up again [Pre-Chorus] I don't get to ask for grace With bruises in my wake I don't get to call it love When love is what I break [Chorus] I’m trying to change I’m trying to change My hands know the damage My heart knows your name I’m trying to change I’m trying to change If I want your forgiveness I’ll have to earn that pain [Verse 2] I left dents in every door And fear in every hall You learned my moods like weather How to brace before the fall I hate the man I fed When I chose to look away Now I sit with the wreckage And I say what I can’t say [Pre-Chorus] I don't get to ask for grace With bruises in my wake I don't get to call it love When love is what I break [Chorus] I’m trying to change I’m trying to change My hands know the damage My heart knows your name I’m trying to change I’m trying to change If I want your forgiveness I’ll have to earn that pain [Bridge] No more blame on the bottle No more blame on the storm No more turning your tears Into something I called “normal” If I never touch you again If I only learn to kneel Maybe shame can become The first real thing I feel [Final Chorus] I’m trying to change I’m trying to change My hands know the damage My heart knows your name I’m trying to change I’m trying to change If I want your forgiveness I’ll have to earn that pain I’m trying to change I’m trying to change Not with words in the heart But with days that stay the same
