Waging Against War

[Verse 1] Orders in my inbox Coffee on my shirt Marching through a memobook Bookmarking the hurt Maps on the table Lines I never drew Salute in the mirror Eyes asking "who?" Mixed plans scribbled In the margins of my head They say “hold the line” I just measure out my breath instead [Chorus] Steady hands Altered plans Doing what I said I’d never do again Keep my aim Kill my doubts Fighting in a war I never talked about Steady hands Shaking heart Signing every form that rips my name apart Mixed plans Silent stance I’m waging this war I don’t believe in (just advance) [Verse 2] Briefing in the break room Jokes to kill the dread Laughing at the wrong time Biting what I’ve said I write tiny questions On the corner of the page Fold them in my pocket Smuggle them offstage They change up the mission Mid-sentence Mid-call I just count my breathing While the numbers start to fall [Chorus] Steady hands Altered plans Doing what I said I’d never do again Keep my aim Kill my doubts Fighting in a war I never talked about Steady hands Shaking heart Signing every form that rips my name apart Mixed plans Silent stance I’m waging this war I don’t believe in (but I advance)