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proof I ruin everything

V6

**Verse 1** I keep receipts for every failure Filed somewhere behind my eyes Every promise that went sideways Every goodbye I couldn’t survive Every room that ended colder Every plan that fell apart I collect the smallest fractures Like exhibits for the dark And when something good gets shaky I don’t wait to see it through I start digging through the archives For all the reasons it was me too Because fear loves repetition And guilt loves patterns it can name So I stack the past around me And call coincidence a case **Pre-Chorus** Exhibit A: somebody cried Exhibit B: somebody left Exhibit C: I couldn’t fix it So obviously I’m what’s left **Chorus** Here’s the proof I ruin everything Every scar, every slammed door Every person who got angry Every time they needed more Here’s the proof I ruin everything Look how neatly it can fit Take every complicated heartbreak And reduce it down to this Me My name My hands My mistakes My voice My fear My face If everything keeps breaking And I’m always somewhere near Then maybe that’s the proof I’ve been afraid of all these years **Verse 2** I remember every bad reaction Every word I wish I’d changed Every time exhaustion made me smaller Every moment I came unglued with pain I remember when the kids were hurting And I didn’t have the answer fast So I turn one human moment Into a sentence built to last I forget the meals and medicine The rides, the hugs, the nights awake Forget the thousand quiet choices That nobody thinks to document or save Because guilt is a crooked historian It only archives what went wrong Then hands me back a broken timeline And says, *See? You knew it all along.* **Pre-Chorus** Exhibit D: another hard day Exhibit E: another tear Exhibit F: I was exhausted So clearly I’m the danger here **Chorus** Here’s the proof I ruin everything Every scar, every slammed door Every person who got angry Every time they needed more Here’s the proof I ruin everything Look how neatly it can fit Take every complicated heartbreak And reduce it down to this Me My name My hands My mistakes My voice My fear My face If everything keeps breaking And I’m always somewhere near Then maybe that’s the proof I’ve been afraid of all these years **Bridge** But evidence without context Can make a lie look clean A photograph can catch the wreckage And never show what came between It doesn’t show the thousand mornings I got up and tried again It doesn’t show how much I loved them It only shows the place things bent It doesn’t show five children loved In five completely different ways It doesn’t show the healing Or the future we were trying to make It doesn’t show the hands beside me Or every truth we chose to say It just points at every broken thing And whispers, *You’re the common trace.* **Breakdown** I have pages. I have memories. I have names. I have dates. But do I have proof? Or just pain Organized into evidence? **Final Chorus** Here’s the proof I ruin everything At least that’s how my mind presents Every loss becomes a verdict Every mistake becomes intent Here’s the proof I ruin everything But maybe proof requires more Than being present when something hurts Or loving people through a war Maybe I’m not every ending Maybe I’m not every crack Maybe being in the story Doesn’t mean I caused the collapse And maybe all this evidence Has one detail missing still— How many times I kept on loving Even when I thought I’d failed **Outro** Case closed? Not yet. I’m still reading What the guilt left out.