Ten Thousand Outcomes

Verse 1] Mum said I was emotionally intelligent And God, I wore it like a crown Thought maybe I'd finally found a thing That nobody could take from me now I knew the words, I knew the signs I knew that mistakes were okay So why did one wrong sentence Make my whole world shake? [Pre-Chorus] I said, “You're only human” To everyone but me I can forgive a thousand things Just don't let one be me [Chorus] 'Cause I've got ten thousand outcomes For everything I've done Ten thousand ways it could go right And ten thousand worries on what could go wrong And one little mistake Feels like a trigger in my head Like everything I love could crumble From something I said I just wanna make everybody happy I just wanna get it right But if perfection is loving people Then I'm terrified of getting it wrong tonight [Verse 2] I thought I was a perfectionist For every picture that I drew Turns out I put the same damn pressure On the people that I love too I read between the silence I count the seconds in a text And build a thousand endings Before anything's happened yet [Pre-Chorus] You say, “It's alright, don't worry” But my mind won't let it be It's searching for the hidden crack In everything you say to me [Chorus] 'Cause I've got ten thousand outcomes For everything I've done Ten thousand ways it could go right And ten thousand worries on what could go wrong And one little mistake Feels like a trigger in my head Like everything I love could crumble From something I said I just wanna make everybody happy I just wanna get it right But if perfection is loving people Then I'm terrified of getting it wrong tonight [Quiet Breakdown] I made a mistake I made a mistake Dose this mean I ruined everything I made a mistake I made a mistake Please tell me that's all It has to mean [Final Chorus] Still got ten thousand outcomes Running circles in my head Ten thousand ways to fix it Ten thousand things I've said I perfect every painting Till there's nothing left to change Then I try to perfect the people And wonder why they won't stay the same I just wanna make everybody happy I just wanna make it right So I edit every word I say And replay every night But people aren't my canvas And friendship isn't art I can't keep painting over every mistake Till there's nothing of me left at all