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The Architect

(Verse 1 - Solo acoustic guitar, fragile) I stood on your shoulders and called myself tall I wore your crown and forgot who held the ball You pulled me from the gutter, kissed my broken hands And I repaid your mercy by forgetting where I stand I walked past the dishes, I slept in later beds I let your words bounce off me like they were nothing said You taught me how to tie my shoes, I tied them around your throat Not with rope—with silence, with every selfish note (Pre-Chorus - Strings enter, voice cracking) I counted all the nights you held my hair back when I shook I counted all the dollars that I never even looked At—you gave them freely, I took them like a king And now I hear the echo of the songs you used to sing (Chorus - Explosive, desperate, voice breaking) I WALKED ON WATER LIKE I BUILT THE SEA! I FORGOT THE HANDS THAT CARVED A MAN OUT OF ME! You gave me your blood, your time, your youth, your prayer And I had the nerve to tell you I'd outgrown your care I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY! I WAS BLIND AND I WAS PROUD! I stood on holy ground and I screamed too loud! You were the architect—I was just the stone And now I'm begging on my knees—please don't leave me alone (Verse 2 - Electric guitar creeps in, heavier) You taught me responsibility—I used it to leave You showed me how to love—I used it to deceive Myself into believing I was always this way That I never needed saving on those 3 AM days When I couldn't find my pulse and you found it for me When I couldn't face the mirror and you became my eyes to see I repaid you with ego, with distance, with cold I made you feel small—when you made me bold (Pre-Chorus 2 - Quieter, trembling) I remember the needle, I remember the floor I remember you not leaving when I begged you out the door And I remember thinking I was finally a man When all I did was take—everything I never planned (Chorus 2 - Full band, crying into the mic) I WALKED ON WATER LIKE I BUILT THE SEA! I FORGOT THE HANDS THAT CARVED A MAN OUT OF ME! You fed me when I starved, you clothed me when I fled And I told myself I made myself inside my own head I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY! I WAS ARROGANT AND SMALL! You built a kingdom—and I let the castle fall! You were the architect—I was just the stone And now I'm begging on my knees—please don't leave me alone (Bridge - Spoken-sung, a cappella, tears) (Slow, whispered, then building) I know I can't unsay it. I know I can't unwind the clock. But every time I walk on water— I remember it's your rock. You were my mother when I had none. My father when he ran. My therapist at 4 AM when I hated who I am. My lover who made love to a ghost until I became flesh. And I repaid you by pretending I was fresh. I didn't outgrow you— I outgrew my shame. And instead of thanking you— I blamed you for the rain. You gave me back my reflection— And I used it to look past you. Tell me, baby— Is there any grace left for a fool who's finally ask you? (Final Chorus - Key change, desperate, raw, vulnerable) I WON'T WALK ON WATER LIKE I BUILT THE SEA! I'LL CRAWL BACK TO THE GUTTER—WHERE YOU FIRST SAW ME! Because that man you loved—he wasn't strong, he was scared! And you loved him anyway—when nobody else cared! I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY! I SEE IT ALL NOW CLEAR! You were the architect, and I was never engineer! You drew the blueprints—I just held the nail And now I'm asking with my whole chest— (Music cuts to silence) ...Can you still love the man who failed? (Outro - Single piano note, fading, whispered) I'm still your stone... I'm still your own... If you'll have me... I'll come home. (Long pause) ...I'll come home. …… polo energy