Outcast Born to Perdition Verse 1 They said blood was thicker than water Said family would carry the load But every road I walked beside them Just led me further down alone They smile for pictures on Sunday mornings Hands raised high where everyone can see But behind the stained glass and the sermons There was never any room for me Pre-Chorus If I don’t fit the mold they worship If I don’t kneel the way they pray Then I’m the problem, I’m the failure I’m the one they cast away Chorus Family’s supposed to have your back Stand beside you when the whole world turns black But all they ever loved was the mirror And the image staring back They want me in a pew, they want me in a box Want me living by the rules they’ve got And when I couldn’t be who they wanted They left me standing in the cold Completely and utterly alone An outcast born to perdition A ghost among my own Verse 2 Every conversation feels like judgment Every kindness comes with strings Love was always just a bargain Offered on their terms to me They call it care, they call it guidance But it feels more like a cage And every time I try to speak my truth They turn another page Pre-Chorus I learned silence from their absence Learned distance from their touch Funny how the people called my family Never knew me all that much Chorus Family’s supposed to have your back Stand beside you when the whole world turns black But all they ever loved was the mirror And the image staring back They want me in a pew, they want me in a box Want me living by the rules they’ve got And when I couldn’t be who they wanted They left me standing in the cold Completely and utterly alone An outcast born to perdition A ghost among my own Bridge Maybe I was never what they prayed for Maybe I was never meant to stay Just another warning in their story Another name they’ll never say But I’m still breathing through the wreckage Still carrying these scars they gave And though they left me for dead in spirit I’m refusing to my grave Final Chorus Family’s supposed to have your back But some only love the mask And if you don’t become their reflection They’ll act like you never asked For understanding, for acceptance For a place where you belong So I walk this road without them now And somehow I carry on Still wounded, still forgotten Still fighting through perdition But I’m more than their rejection And more than their condition
